Stream of Consciousness
Word of the Day: 執着
I made mapo tofu for some protein. I got to visit Daidai's stream on youtube, it was nice, I do enjoy just hanging out there. Daidai is a Mangaka who I am pretty sure has some sort of mental illness but I am sort of messed up to so we just gel together naturally. I consider him a colleague since we both do art but maybe a superior since he is so dedicated to his craft. I bought some stuff from him before.
By Kayla McIntosh4 months ago in Confessions
Two strangers seated side-by-side on a long overnight train ride. Content Warning.
The notebook feels cheap under my fingers, the cardboard cover flimsy. This pen is already starting to skip. But it’s midnight, and the train is a dark serpent sliding through the sleeping countryside, and I can’t sleep. The hum is in my bones. That low, metallic thrumming that feels like being inside a giant, moving creature. It’s the sound of distance being eaten. The sound of leaving.
By Chahat Kaur4 months ago in Confessions
Behind the Curtain: The Real Story of the Pakistan–Saudi Deal”
The recent Pakistan Saudi defense agreement has been hailed in official statements as a symbol of “brotherhood” and “mutual protection.” But a closer look reveals a different story one that raises troubling questions about Pakistan’s sovereignty, regional stability, and future
By Izhar Ullah4 months ago in Confessions
Shark Dive at Beqa Lagoon
I was a novice diver. I had fewer than ten dives under my belt when I found myself on holiday in Fiji. I was eager to do some diving. The resort I stayed at recommended an exciting adventure. They suggested the "Shark Dive at Beqa Lagoon."
By Calvin London4 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day:供養
I haven't found a good way to channel the vocabulary I am learning. I am incorporating it with my writing as a theme for each thing but there should be some sort of system to channel it into anki. I am close to figuring it out but I think it also requires some editing which I haven't participated in quite yet.
By Kayla McIntosh4 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 以心伝心
I am feeling a bit manic right now or I feel like I get a little crazy thinking about Sebastian. I find myself sounding a bit desperate in my opinion. I brought up Carl Jung and the Friends of Carl Jung up in Portland, basically spewing out 101 Psychology bullshit. ( He's a councilor so I am sure he studied that ). I need to just back off though and I know that this obsessiveness is a mixture of me being stressed and wanting a distraction, with a combination of my infatuation with him.
By Kayla McIntosh4 months ago in Confessions
The Things We Do in the Dark. Content Warning.
October 12th I saw him again today. It’s stupid, really. The way my body reacts. A full-system reboot from a thirty-second interaction in a coffee line. It’s not even about the words. It’s about the space between them.
By Chahat Kaur4 months ago in Confessions
The Date
Passing the time, looking around and looking for a soul to accompany to follow, she continues to walk towards the dark small alley. So many feelings to hold, to resist, to procrastinate so no one will know how she feels. She continued to look, to see if she could find the smell, the shadow left by that man.
By Lasha Desela4 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day:教師
I need to schedule a math tutor. I think it is possible now since it is passed the 11th. My advisor I missed sent me an email and I got back to her when I could. It would be nice if we could handle it over email before the appointment but I understand if that isn't the case. Either way, the email was sent.
By Kayla McIntosh4 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 数学
I am trying to figure out how I want to navigate my 3 computers. I have the School computer set up on my dining table, but I am wondering if I should change it out for the couch one. Currently the couch one is my Personal computer. I was using it to buy stuff on amazon and stuff like that. I was also using it to input some stuff for my Anki and converting my physical notes to digital. I guess I can do it on the dining table.
By Kayla McIntosh4 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 一番. Top Story - September 2025.
I finally think I am back to my schedule again but I am so giddy talking to Sebastian today. I know it is because of the weed a little bit but I am enjoying the heck out of it. Some of the enthusiasm might be also because I got the clean bill of health from the doctors and I don't have to worry about dying from an orgasm. Hopefully at least.
By Kayla McIntosh4 months ago in Confessions
