Word of the Day: 執着

I made mapo tofu for some protein. I got to visit Daidai's stream on youtube, it was nice, I do enjoy just hanging out there. Daidai is a Mangaka who I am pretty sure has some sort of mental illness but I am sort of messed up to so we just gel together naturally. I consider him a colleague since we both do art but maybe a superior since he is so dedicated to his craft. I bought some stuff from him before.

It's a hurricane over in Japan right now so he was just streaming indoors.

After stuffing my face with 2 servings, I am back on the couch.

I am trying to be productive but I am also trying to allow my body to rest a bit more. I sort of got a little headache and I am still itchy all over so I am doing what I can to sooth those problems. It is leaving me feeling irritated though.

People in my town are so stupid. I wrote on Reddit in my town that we need to do something about a storm drain that has this tree growing out of it. Everyone was like, " Do it yourself. "

It's nearly 9pm and I have been nursing my headache/gas/itchy body. I don't know why I am experiencing all these allergies but it seems to be calming down, which is good. Feels like the day was wasted though.

I've been mostly laying in bed doom scrolling. I think I only studied Japanese for the max of 4 hours when it was supposed to be an all day affair accompanied by cleaning of the house.

I managed to do none of those things. I am sort of annoyed but I have learned that my body/health come first before anything.

I want to eat weed and watch reiki videos but I didn't do anything to earn the gummy so I think I'll just doom scroll again.

I ended up taking the gummy because I don't think there is any point in suffering when it is considered medicine at this point.

It's Friday so I have to stream today. I am recovered but I feel sort of worn out.

it is 9:30 am so I am a little late but I was just trying to wake up. My body felt a little weird even though it was technically better. Sort of like a little toll was taken out on it.

I am just one Todo list behind so a part of me is thinking before I stream, I just tackle that and get on track.

The stress of everything the other day sort of made me go manic. It sort of scared me but I also knew that it was stress. I mean, it had to be, I got all itchy, heavy breathing, and sinus issues. It was attacking my immune system.

I think switching gears is the hardest thing about everything right now. It has always been an issue of mine, and though I have gotten better at it over the years, it is still lagging behind other people, I feel.

I am jumping through a lot of dimensions right now so it is a little bit discombobulating. I might not stream today but I need to do my ToDo list.

I only have 189 dollars left for this month so, I don't know if I should click on the buy button on amazon. And that is even more reason to just ignore the house and work on stream. Maybe I am reluctant to go on there because I am happy by myself?