Stream of Consciousness
Word of the Day: 数学
I am trying to figure out how I want to navigate my 3 computers. I have the School computer set up on my dining table, but I am wondering if I should change it out for the couch one. Currently the couch one is my Personal computer. I was using it to buy stuff on amazon and stuff like that. I was also using it to input some stuff for my Anki and converting my physical notes to digital. I guess I can do it on the dining table.
By Kayla McIntosh4 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 一番. Top Story - September 2025.
I finally think I am back to my schedule again but I am so giddy talking to Sebastian today. I know it is because of the weed a little bit but I am enjoying the heck out of it. Some of the enthusiasm might be also because I got the clean bill of health from the doctors and I don't have to worry about dying from an orgasm. Hopefully at least.
By Kayla McIntosh4 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 洗濯
I put on pants from the bottom of my laundry basket and they are obviously stinky but I am going to the hospital so I am feeling like I don't really care. I sort of want to put perfume but I am not sure if that is allowed or not. I even worried about the deodorant but I put a little on
By Kayla McIntosh4 months ago in Confessions
Secret Letter. Content Warning.
The yank came without warning—sudden, forceful, pulling me from the safety of my chair like invisible hands had decided my time of rest was over. My body lurched forward, the familiar world tilting sideways as I stumbled, caught off guard by the violence of the movement. Something had shifted, though I couldn't name what. The air felt different, charged with an electricity that made my skin prickle.
By Parsley Rose 4 months ago in Confessions
Unsent, Unforgotten
We all have sentences inside us that were never spoken. Words that sat at the edge of our lips, waiting for courage, waiting for the right time—a time that never came. For me, those words weren’t just sentences. They were an entire letter.
By Shehzad Anjum4 months ago in Confessions
Secret Letter. Content Warning.
The fluorescent lights are too bright and they're humming secrets I can't quite catch. My feet are moving before my brain catches up—through the automatic doors, past the reception desk where the woman is staring (she knows something), into the parking lot where the air tastes like metal and fear.
By Parsley Rose 4 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 鳴き声
It is the day before my procedure and I have been laying in bed all day doom scrolling. I decided to buy a pizza and with tears in my eyes I told myself, " You deserve to eat ". I'll probably cry until the pizza gets here but I really think I need to get it out. I have a lot I need to process so I am thinking I'll get to write a few stories here before I chow down on some pie.
By Kayla McIntosh4 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 自己紹介
I had sex with a Filipino guy. It was sort of like heaven. He was just caressing me and kissing me so much, but looking in his eyes it wasn't love but he held space for me and I am really grateful for that. We did fuck without a condom a bit so I am worried about possible pregnancy ( highly unlikely ) and.... well I have HPV... I feel very ashamed I did that to him, he could have possibly contracted that and I would be the one who knowingly gave such a kind soul that. I could've waited until it was out of my system ( 2 years ) before doing anything like that.
By Kayla McIntosh4 months ago in Confessions
The Lake at Twilight
You look out over the reflection of the sun, through the still waters of the lake, as the sun sets behind the gentle darkening mountains. The sky recedes from yellow to orange, to red, before hinting a shade of violet and blue. The clouds once gentle shades of off-white are now turning into darker shades of gray.
By Parsley Rose 4 months ago in Confessions
We are momentum. We live in momentum. We create momentum.
I reached out and I told her “Do you love me a lot?” Then she said, “I have to work, I’ll love you later”. Nonetheless, it made me realize how many times I have “postponed” and “planned” my joys and thrills. Like they were supposed to be on schedule and how much room I have created for stagnancy of true FLOW of life and energy. No wonder I got so deep into fear, anxiety and so much more of this spectrum. I got what I prioritized, and I was what I prioritized to the outer world, because in the sanctuary of my own space, I could “slightly” explore more, “safely”, what I could`ve been or what I truly deeply AM.
By Cristina Pomana4 months ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 速攻
I slept with this guy named Bobby. He was this handsome half Japanese half white guy. He has a youtube channel with like 4k followers so that's neat but he's a complete tool otherwise. He just led me on and then proceeded to ghost me when I tried to follow up, thinking maybe the first time was just awkward but he did no such thing.
By Kayla McIntosh4 months ago in Confessions
