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I finally think I am back to my schedule again but I am so giddy talking to Sebastian today. I know it is because of the weed a little bit but I am enjoying the heck out of it. Some of the enthusiasm might be also because I got the clean bill of health from the doctors and I don't have to worry about dying from an orgasm. Hopefully at least.

I ordered a large coffee and a croissant from my favorite coffee place today, I really want to get the stuff done. I have pretty good momentum but I have had a few bouts of crying so that took a little time.

I am definitely taking my Todo list to school, I am still sure it will be my key to keeping up with everything.

I feel so hot in my robe but I feel I have to keep it on as I keep telling myself that I am going to take out the recycling but just haven't got around to doing it.

I have like 10 things in queue for me to do and that isn't even my digital tasks.

I am happy that Sebastian wants to meet again, I am not sure why he is asking me if there is anything else I'd like to do. I mentioned going out to eat or hiking a path or something but... is he asking out of politeness?

I don't know how to feel about it if that's the case. I sort of wonder if I should sort of create some distance between us just so we don't go hurting ourselves right now. Especially since I don't sense any red flags right now.

I also have an upcoming visit from my therapist soon so I need to prepare for that. I have pretty good time though and I also am sure she wouldn't mind helping me to clean as she has offered in the past. So I am considering taking her up on that offer today.

I think it would help if I didn't feel so hot right now. I think the coffee raised my body temperature and is having me have sweat under my boobs.

I really want to feel Sebastian's dick right now, I love sitting on top of it... oh wait, I can't sit on it because we both have thunder thighs but, yea jus cuddling with him... But yea, it isn't even like pure sexual energy, his dick is healing. I feel like feathers rolling all over my body everytime he pounds on me. It feels like the scene in the Orville when Yaphet and the doctor are fucking, my body is just covered in tingly goo.

The room is finally cool enough for me to do my chores so I'll be working on that for a while now.

I got a weird letter from my mom's house about some sort of denial of payment for something but I don't recognize the doctor at all. I guess that gives me something to talk to Keely about.

I sort of talked to myself a little bit about everything going on. I know I have this journal but sometimes you need to hear your own voice to get the inflections and cadence information. I feel like I am crying too much but Saltwater Heals Tarot sort of told me that I would be doing this a lot so I am just accepting it as part of the healing process.

Oh shit, he is overly kissy and huggy like my mom. I think that might be why I am comfortable with him.