Word of the Day:教師

I need to schedule a math tutor. I think it is possible now since it is passed the 11th. My advisor I missed sent me an email and I got back to her when I could. It would be nice if we could handle it over email before the appointment but I understand if that isn't the case. Either way, the email was sent.

I don't have habitica on my School computer but that might be a good thing because that is to tract my spending habits sort of like a digital budget planner.

I probably shouldn't get in the habit of shopping on school wifi or with my school computer.

But yea, the math tutor. I need to navigate the school website right now but they have some stupid portal severs which is an extremely inefficient way to do things.

I am finding myself wanting to enter my Japanese mind again, the way I move my mouth and I am trying to think in japanese which is sort of hard since the only way to practice it is writing at the moment and I don't think in written form so it isn't working. I really need to hear and speak it right now.

I mean thank got for langcorrect but it is making this website sort of ineffecient at the moment. Looking at the word count only being 230 and my DM going off on hellotalk is making me think I need to hurry up and switch over but I already forgot what I came over here for in the first place.

Yea this is pretty frustrating but my gut is telling me that writing is my only sanctuary and if it is good enough for Emma Watson then it is good enough for me.

Also the Todo lists are secretly there to stop my drug addiction. Like Doing a Todo list or finishing a paper of my notes is equal to one dose of weed so, it gives me a reward to being productive. I figured if I manage it that way then I will give my body a rest of it adequately and I won't suffer unproductivity.

Oh shit, I can't schedule an appointment with a math tutor on the days I do math. Maybe I need to hold off and only do it in emergencies.

I am developing an use for my Habitica to include transferring of task with the habits tab but I am not sure how that is going to work out when my School computer isn't supporting that function.

I have to reconsider what I use that for. I also have to decide what is my default computer which is exceedingly hard to figure out at the moment as one hasn't naturally emerged as such. I mean, it is a bit Work computer at the moment but it feels tentative to me.

I sort of though maybe having a note book at each station might be a good idea but then that means I will have to decide the default computer tonight.

I don't know why but regardless of the computer, writing on Vocal has become my main focus. I might be responding to the bonus I got or just responding to my overwhelming stress. I want to think it is the stress since I am doing heavy breathing and sort of controlling my breath. So, that must be proof of that theory.

I finally finished a sheet so I got my weed, yay. Sebastian also sort of said he was tired and isn't talking to me.

In this manic phase, I feel automatic writing taking over. maybe I need to write in that book.

It seems it is that I pay myself to work. It is infuriating.

Something isn't adding up or I am not solving this problem well enough.

The gnats flying around my head are pissing me off. I am annoyed quite a bit but I do know I did achieve something today even if it was not everything that I wanted it to be.