Matthew Mccahey
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I want to use stories and life experiences to allow others to be open about their own.
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Folk, Love and Hope. Top Story - December 2024.
The soundtrack of my year started off with the song Alaska by Caiola , an indie-folk singer. I had a new relationship starting to grow, but my fear of commitment to something more was creeping in. One of the lyrics is about resisting the urge to add another affirmation to the list on his lover's wall. Because that meant adding to their life and he asks if they were leaving or just coming home. I resonated with that greatly since I was always asking myself if I was coming or going. Whether I was going to finally stay this time, and had I found my home. He sings about being terrified to let the relationship mature, and wonders if they even should. That became a reoccurring line in my life, and in everything I did. I used to tell myself I was doing the right thing by leaving by hoping to spare them the pain of staying. I wondered if I was worthy of adding another line to their life. Always afraid that I might want to stay for once so I resisted.
By Matthew Mccaheyabout a year ago in Beat
Dating, Travel and the In-between
Man, dating is hard, and it becomes even harder when you spend most of your time traveling. On one hand I get to know people as deeply as I know myself. There's less time so the openness and vulnerability of both parties is crucial. However, that only leads to an ache in my chest every time I have to eventually head home. I still carry pieces of all the people I have met and loved while traveling.
By Matthew Mccaheyabout a year ago in Journal
The Long Road Back To Myself
This year started off with such promise. I had an loving relationship and traveled more than ever, but my same underlying trauma knocked me down. I saw one of my best friends get married after seeing him struggle to find love. During that ceremony I felt the love and it hurt me inside knowing I couldn't love my girlfriend that same way. So I ran away once more thinking I was too broken to be loved, too broken to be healed, and the same I'll never be good enough.
By Matthew Mccaheyabout a year ago in Motivation
Faith, Fear and Gratitude . Runner-Up in Letters of Gratitude Challenge. Content Warning.
Dear Mom, Gratitude... I spent a very long time trying to grasp the understanding of gratitude. You hear it at every recovery meeting, and it's part of the 12 steps. The very core of getting sober requires immense gratitude, and it's something you have to find every day, one day at a time. I didn't know what it meant because I spent most days ungrateful for being alive, but as I completed each step of sobriety, I learned what true gratitude was.
By Matthew Mccaheyabout a year ago in Humans
Renewed Perspectives and Gratitude in South Korea
It feels like a lifetime ago I was here in South Korea as a different man who wanted nothing out of life. I spent 9 months deployed on the DMZ back when I was in the army and I was bitter, and still angry at the world. Unable to appreciate this beautiful country I was in until now.
By Matthew Mccaheyabout a year ago in Chapters
