healing
How to heal fully and properly.
Poverty
In Life you can adjust with certain set of pain. But when it comes to basic like less-money it is a worst time for anyone on earth. It is a place where anyone (human / animals/ living creatures ) can get into any level to fulfil its hunger. It will teach you all it's worth. Everyone will experience it at once in life, it kills, anyone without needing a knife.
By Harsha Upadhyaya4 years ago in Motivation
Metamorphosis
METAMORPHOSIS After much deliberation, I have finally decided that I no longer want her in my life! I resolve not to listen to her anymore – not to let her downright nasty, insulting and hurtful words permeate my being and reduce me feeling inferior, time and time again. If I am to be a renewed and refreshed version of myself, then I have no choice in the matter. This is the year when I distance myself from her tiresome and apathetic negative attitude and all the limiting beliefs, she has imposed upon me. She led me to truly believe that I’m not good enough and that I can’t ever be happy or successful because I’m unworthy and undeserving. My inner growth stunted by rustiness of her toxic chains that have held me down for way too much of my existence on this earthly plain. Well, I’m happy to report that this is the year when I finally say goodbye, au reviour and bloody good riddens – I am ready to let her go and not before time!
By Kerry Fisher 4 years ago in Motivation
Resistance to Release
There is a resistance inside of me. I've felt it as long as I can remember. It must have been there since before I was born and I can't help but feel I've carried it with me through many lifetimes. It's nothing I can put my finger on, just an undercurrent, a theme in my life, that manifests itself in different ways. I'm always ready to oppose, to defend, embodying the raccoon-like energy of, "cute but will fight,” whether that kind of enthusiasm is warranted or not. Resistance is good when it comes to certain things, of course. Like when I know someone is trying to take advantage of me or when it's time to protest injustice in the streets. But it becomes harmful when I use my own resistance against myself. When I unconsciously resist my own growth, sabotaging my personal evolution. Yet it's not always easy to recognize when this shift in the dynamic of resistance has taken place. Because people can rationalize anything. And I for one am damn good at rationalizing the hell out of things I am not yet ready to face.
By DeeDee Scalzetti4 years ago in Motivation
I am an Empath
SIGHT She stood at my bedside in a white dress. Her appearance was exactly how it always was. Long colored auburn/red hair, big round flushed cheeks, and large green eyes. A white dress, I thought to myself. "What are you doing?" "I am sleeping!" "What are you wearing?" Eyes filled with sleep haze, thoughts slow, I muttered questions off to her. No response. She was teasing me and ignoring my questions. She always picked on me. My eyes cleared, my mind awoke, and in an instant: Shock, fear, and confusion sank in. Imagine Alice spinning down the rabbit hole to Wonderland. My bed and I were spinning in some vortex, going somewhere but also not moving at all.
By Amanda Marks4 years ago in Motivation
"&"
You watched me fall and cry over and over again. I have face planted in front of you more times than I can count, trying to figure out how to maneuver through life. Only the lord knows how embarrassed I was when this happened and had to listen to me gripe and complain about how to face you repeatedly every day. Year after year you watched me. You watched as I hid and ran away too afraid to speak up and protect myself, too afraid to stand up for what was right, and too afraid to move forward from the stagnant position I had put myself in. Every year that you watched, as I made a mess of things, you came up with a plan. A plan to light a fire under my butt and move me forward. It was as if God himself told you I had issues and needed someone to hold my hand and pull me out of the dark pit that I had dug for myself. Like a sniper of the night, you executed it flawlessly. So let me tell you how things happened from my point of view.
By Kimberly Perez4 years ago in Motivation
Living With An Illness
Living with an illness that many doctors know nothing about is very overwhelming and very tiresome. I have been through lifetime of nightmares with this illness and have had so good times just from having this illness. Living without support that you need and not being able to work or do as you please, stresses a person out beyond relief sometimes. I have struggled with keeping jobs and staying healthy enough to keep a job. People tend to treat you different and some show sympathy when they think your not capable of handling yourself. I don't want sympathy, I want advise on how to live with this illness without dying or without a job to support my children. I have to teach myself and have the agility and power to accept the changes around me. I must remember that the more I push myself the worse It be for me. I have to learn that by not taking care of my health will result in me losing my life again and again because the next time may not be so sweet. Some of us are lucky to be able to do normal things with normal activities and some of us are not. I stayed my whole childhood in a children's hospital and it would sometimes last for weeks or months at a time. Now that I am older, I can control my pain better and try and take care of my children but most of the time they are taking care of me. The thing that I hate the most about doctors are the question some of them ask, "How Long Have You Had the Disease?". The most hurtful and dumb founded question in the world and you call yourself a Hematologist Oncology doctor. I be so ashamed to tell someone that I have this disease because with it there are so many problems and weakness that come with it. When finding ways to control my pain at home , I do problem solving techniques to find a solution to control myself and prevent myself from going to the doctors that I can afford. They keep giving me the wrong medication which a few times has caused me to die under their care and watch. I records clearly indicate that I am high risk patient with a history of allergies to some medication and medical supplies. Most of them don't won't to hear that, they just want your money that you will be spending on all the medical equipment and supplies that they have to use. Living with this illness have taught me so many lessons and why people are not there to help you when time is needed. It is a huge burden on us and those that have to care for us when we are to sick and down and can't move. Some days I wish I could make a cure that wouldn't cost a billion dollars to cure us all or just temporarily cures us. We have a lifespan of 40 years but I have witnessed a few to live past the age of 60, they said we can't bare children but I have 2, sister have 3 and some have up to 6 children. They say we can't work but their are many with jobs and I have had 2 my entire life. We just living for the moment and I know that I am ready and prepared for this day to come because I have been there before and now I know what to do and what to expect. I will leave footprints wherever I go.
By kimberly swain4 years ago in Motivation
Worst VACATION ever.
On may 21, 2019. I hate the change of my life, I was in a traumatic car accident with a death. I was in the backseat of the car sleeping at the time. Me and my cousin her boyfriend we went to Atlanta for her to do a hair class because she is a hair stylist in Pittsburgh. We had planned on leaving at 4 o’clock after the class and her boyfriend would drive the whole way home. We thought he slept the whole time we were in the class but we seem to be wrong. We got on the road everything was OK me and him wanted to smoke before we hit the road really so we stopped and got some marijuana. After we smoke we were on the road and we had to stop and get gas after driving for a while and I said my head hurt. So once we start I got out the car and got my pillow from out of the trunk and my cousin wanted hers as well so she can sleep too. We was driving for six hours about once we got in North Carolina I believe he started to get tired. At 6 AM he was driving behind a guard rail and once he realize he was behind the guard rail he woke up and it was too late. We hit a steel pole at the end of the guard rail making the car crash horribly. Pp the driver died, my cousin suffered from broken wrist& ankle. I suffered from a traumatic brain injury and fractured spine. While in the hospital the doctors were very scared on my second day in the hospital. They entered a breathing tube into my head and told my dad my life was basically ran off of a cord plugged into the wall right now. He asked if the power went out what would happen and they told him I would die. I was in the hospital for 30 days in North Carolina, there were times when I was trying to leave on my own to the point where they put a tent around my hospital bed.All because I kept getting up and walking out into the hallway. My younger sister had to teach me how to walk, and write again or through FaceTime. Before I was about to leave the hospital the doctors told me that I was not allowed to live by myself for six months to a year, drive a car for six months to a year until the doctor approve me to drive, I wasn’t allowed to be by myself either. So once I came home I had to move out of my house that me and my boyfriend had. My vehicle got repossessed while I was in the hospital so I didn’t have a car either once I came home. My dad is an auto mechanic and he could get cars very cheap, but he didn’t want to get me one until my vision was back to normal so I didn’t almost kill myself. Once I came home I didn’t listen and decided to go buy myself a car because I received the settlement for the accident. I went and bought a car and didn’t listen to my dad. I thought everything was fine and I was OK. I was in another relationship with a man that was horrible and worse than my ex. And he asked me to take him to work one day after hitting me in my face while I was at home in my eye. So I called my dad and told him I really didn’t feel like I could drive that day because I got hit in my eye and he told me not to drive my car. Of course I didn’t listen I drive him to work I’m on my way back home and I crash my car. I was OK because this time I actually had my seatbelt on and I had my brace on my back that they gave me in the hospital. Once I got out of there and I got home I was scared to drive after that. Now I’m back better and back on the road trying to get my life back together!
By Jazmyne Taggart 4 years ago in Motivation
Through The Chaos
I had finally hit rock bottom. I have always had a hard life but always stayed optimistic about it all the things I went through some are like in hispanic culture you would call it a tvnovela. I will write about that in an other storie put point is I had finally lost it all my job, friends, family, my abusive ex-husband. That in itself was a hard reality they removed themselves out of my life. It was hard for me being the people pleaser I was I always went out of my way for them gave even when I had nothing to give. So I was left on empty, financially, emotionally, physically. I was beat all I had by my side was my 3 children who where my responsibility all to myself since my ex-husband was now disabled permanently mentally and physically which I will go into detail in an other story as well. So I was alone and empty and covid was already a pandemic which as it wasn’t much help it was in a sense that I needed all the financial help that was available due to covid. I was so disappointed with my life I layed in my room n cried many nights and days tried to keep myself going because I still needes to be a mother so when I could I layed alone in my room crying asking my self what had lead my life to this point as I continued to ask my self I began to find the answers within me. Where I found the most meaningful love, my self love. I began to realize that I was giving love, to everyone but not to the person that mattered most myself. I put others first insted of myself. Self love is needed not in a selfish way but in a healthy way where one must give to ones self before giving to anyone else or it will lead to the place I found myself depleted. Its been difficult to finally realize what being that nice person, people pleasing, always trying to make others happy but myself, not being able to say no. How damaging it could be I thought I was doing the right thing. Ohh.. was I wrong. So I questioned why I was this person who didn’t love herself who didn’t value how amazing she really was. I found my inner child trauma and that is why I stayed in toxic relationships, friendships, didn’t love myself. It all came down what I had grown accustomed to as a child. I was raised by a single mother who’s main concern was and is still the man in her life who is not my father he has not children not so much by choice but it what he had to accept being with a woman who had made the choice to permanently stop that process. He is about 16-17 years younger than my mother she actually met him because he was her son in laws best friend. The chaos that come of that was pretty hostile. My sister her husband my dad it caused a lot of trouble when their afair was out in the open and my mother left my dad she had her reasons to my dad was narcissistic and constantly cheated. Her choice of replacement was not the best we all felt some type of way about it he was a close family friend who we considered family he lived with us he actually tried to date my other sister who was around his age but she wasn’t interested but guess my mother was so they didn’t sit us all down and told us they just snuck around and eventually stopped hiding it I was about 8 maybe when it all happened I was upset I hated him he ruined my parents marriage in my eyes as I kid I didn’t understand that my dad had done that long before he did. So I had to deal with my feelings my mother has not ever took the time to talk to any of us and explain life situations so in time he began to hate me as well and my mother would and still does chose to allow him to treat me and my children unfairly rude he is mean but all my other sisters and their kids are treated good except me and mine. So as a child my mother favored my younger sister she always got what she wanted for Christmas I didn’t, my younger sister got what she wanted the attention I didn’t I would be hurt sad upset as a kid and as a kid I realized that no one cared that I was upset that I was hurt so I came to the conclusion as a kid that I was the only one hurting why keep hurting my self with situations I could not change and be happy insted of being sad mad hurt because no one cared anyways so thats how I began to deal with all pain in my life that my feelings didn’t matter if my mother didn’t love me showed me I wasn’t worthy of love its what I had learned to accept so I stayed in toxic relationships and friendships because its the only love I was worthy of until I hit rock bottom and realized I had to love myself to know that I was worthy of being loved that my feelings did matter and I began to speak up for myself I didn’t want anymore bread crumbs in and out love and knew that I was capable of being loved I deserved to be acknowledged it took me loosing it all and being okay with being alone to see I was worth it and also a big thank you to the man that stuck by my side as I fought through my doubts, fears and loved me through them he has been a big part of my self love process because he showed me that I was worth being loved for all that I was and that my feelings mattered and all he wanted was to love me unconditionally. Although I was unable love the right way until I healed my self he was patient and understanding he heard me yell he heard me cry he apologized for things he didn’t do and I thank him for being strong when I was at my weakest. I hope to be his strength one day as hes been mine. I was blessed with an amazing man hes not perfect by any means but hes been perfect for me I appreciate him and everything I have been through as it has made me that much stronger, and continue to get stronger each and every day. May everyone know that you are worthy and you do matter in this life and may everyone strive to be their best self every day. God bless all I prayed a lot through this process and he as answered my prayers each time maybe not in the way I wanted them but in they way they needed to be. With God all is possible he is my savior.
By Sweet Jenn4 years ago in Motivation
Living a Second-hand Life
For over half of my life, I've existed in a Charlie Brown state, with a constant cloud of guilt ready to rain down on me every time I considered doing something nice for myself. To avoid confronting such misery, I began to live a lukewarm, mundane life of routine activities to give my life structure as I juggled the day-in, day-out rigmarole of life. Yesterday, as I sat on my couch, it dawned on me that it was the first time in my 38 years of living on this earth that I purchased a brand-new living room set.
By Jay Baker Stories4 years ago in Motivation
What Karma Did You Carry Over from Your Past Lives?
When my son was a toddler he used to hold a crayon like a cigarette. No one around him smoked, although he could have seen it on tv. Still, it made me curious about why he would do this. The idea of a past life did occur to me but I didn’t know much about them at that time.
By Jocelyn Joy Thomas4 years ago in Motivation
