Kayla McIntosh
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Personal tell-all pieces: Word of the Day and Jail Journal. Secret poet on the side. ( I don't use Ai to write any posts, everything is done manually. )
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Word of the Day: 治りかけ
For the past couple of days I have been down with a fever with chills and constant coughing. I had a few fever dreams and drenched my clothes 2 times. Today, I feel a bit better so I figured I could make an entry here but, I feel so off kilter, my spiritual self feels so hollow, like I was taken off a giant wheel and now I am in the dirt trying to walk along this road.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 頭痛
I woke up with a complete migraine and the shits. Which was kind of good because my diet hasn't been going very well. I do look slimmer in the mirror, if I look at my belly and stuff.... not so much my arms but, it shows on the scale I have gained 2 lbs which is making me feel so many ways.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 水瓶座
I woke up so early this morning. My mind feels empty compared to the chaos of yesterday in my mind. I can tell when my mind/bipolarness is affecting me when my notes get all jumbled. Luckily it was just one page but, I can't afford to channel all the different spirits hovering over me. Maybe I am all clear this morning because I saged yesterday? This morning, I am just by myself, listening to Jimmy on Youtube.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 敵. Content Warning.
His face glowed in the dark. I wondered if it was from radiation or he is just some sort of starseed. In the dark, his face changed so many times. I saw so many things in the dark. It was like communing with a djinn. All I thought was, it is better to be connected to him. I saw the faces of the past, maybe faces of the future? Really, what is wrong with a handsome man in my bed even if his spirit might not be human? I too also feel my bloodline... This time it was different. He used to fuck me so hard it would hurt but, we just melted into each other this time. He gave me so many kisses.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: はっきり
I am thinking about the last person I was intimate with thinking, who was that for? What was that even? " It's just a fantasy." He said it himself, I was just comfortable for him but I don't think he would've really chosen me if he had better options. It was obvious every time he ran out.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 警戒
I am not sure what the last conversation I have meant. It was a constant repeating of " There's no particular meaning. " I think I can't accept nihilism, somehow that saddens my heart. Sometimes we fall into sadness but I don't believe in living there. We have just as much freedom to leave it at any time. I am currently listening to a woman going about taking action which gives me a little hesitance in actuality, but I accept the light resistance to the willing of giving into my desires.
By Kayla McIntoshabout a year ago in Confessions
Word of the Day: 砂時計
I woke up at 2:56am, I felt pretty energized and healthy at that time but for whatever stupid reason I felt it wasn't a good time to wake up so, I went back to bed and woke back up around 8am and feel like shit, a complete headache and intestinal pains all day.
By Kayla McIntosh2 years ago in Confessions
