My story

Trigger warning: sexual assault, emotional abuse, mental illness, homelessness, cancer, death.

My name's Rohini Ananda Maragh. I'm an aries moon, libra rising, pisces sun. My birthday's 2/21/96. My mom died 2 months and a day before I turned 21 and 3 days less than 2 months before she turned 60. It was due to a third bout of cancer - this time stage 4 starting in the breasts, spreading to the liver, lungs, bones, kidneys, blood, brain. I was homeless at one point due to a long period of receiving sexual and emotional abuse from over 8 men. I was born in Jamaica, West Indies to afrolatineurasian parents. I moved to New York when I was 5 and still live here. I've been self-employed since spring 2018 hoping to delve deeper into multipassionate acropreneurship. I read the dictionary for fun in elementary school, had the mental capabilities of a 12th grader in 9th grade, attained the highest gpa in my entire school in 10th grade, once held a class average of 100 in Spanish (though English is my fluent tongue), acquired a grade of 100 in History class, and graduated with a Regents Diploma. I was bullied by insecure peers, diagnosed mentally ill at age 10, unemployed from 2015-2018. I'm a success. My mental health and personal development is evolving and flourishing one day at a time. I'm 24 and I’m making it. I am open and honest, selfless, thoughtful, straightforward, respectful, patient, understanding, responsible, expressive, caring, resilient, ambitious, meticulous, goal-oriented, confident, sensual, independent, supportive, appreciative, trustworthy, balanced, optimistic, comforting, wise, purpose-driven, affectionate, intelligent, chivalrous, sensitive, consistent, loyal, spontaneous, humble, perseverant, voluptuous, eccentric, charismatic, faithful, intuitive, heuristic, beautiful, succint, sage, receptive. I have/use telepathy, psychokinesis, precognition, mediumship, energy medicine, Clairsentience, clairvoyance, clairaudience, aura reading, astral projection, apportation. I can sing, dance, cook, photograph, budget. I am beautiful, brilliant, kind, spiritual, loving, psychic. Thank you @theguerrillafeminist on Instagram for intro inspo.

Never confuse education with intelligence. Knowledge and education is having information, facts and truthful opinions, in addition to their contrary examples/figures in history. Intelligence is knowing how to correctly apply this awareness so you don't fit the negative status quo.

A problem I have is, when I express my feelings, I don't always think them through. When I have calmed down from anger, I express my feelings from an inclusive manner. That's why I'm glad that I caught myself quickly before I did more damage. In the past, when I said I'm going to sleep, it's really another way of me saying “Let me go before I embarrass myself further.” Anger is vocalizing the language of shame. Those who have felt betrayal, rejection, pain, anger, or hatred, they speak it until they think through why they felt what they felt, and begin to empathize versus sympathize. Anger Talk is aka The Language of Shame. If you or your family members are prone to anger, it's better to cool off before speaking. They will begin to settle down as well, just by your good example. The ways of peace are very contagious.

My mind is most active at night, but it can be dangerous, as exhibited, if I'm not careful. Passive/Aggressive Behavior, Cynicism, Sarcasm, Profanity = Anger Talk. Get in control of *anger*, because it's one step from *danger*. And I feel like it's stereotypical to say that women are more prone to anger. Men have just as much feelings as women; how they take out their frustration is the difference. Men are more active. Women are more reactive. That's why many people say, "When she's acting up, she really wants 'the d' ". Sexual intercourse calms many people down. That’s why many healthy relationships may be inclusive of it. To me, a healthy relationship includes arguments. If one person in the couple has negative emotions, whether towards their significant other, or from a foreign experience, explaining, when calm, what caused the pain, rather than belching it out of irrationality, helps form a bond of trust and love. If you're not thinking it through, there's a lack of oxygen to your brain, which is attributed to asphyxiation. Passive-Aggressive Speech -> Logic. Cynicism -> Empathy. Sarcasm -> Sympathy. Profanity -> Reserved Demeanor. To me, sympathy means you know of one’s pain, but empathy means you may have experienced it yourself, or you cared to listen to their life story. Sympathy = Knowledge, Empathy = Understanding/Discernment. Discernment is a whole new level. With discernment it's knowing of someone's pain/misfortune, feeling it with them/trying to comfort the best you can, but this time around, you may tend to move asap with help that could aid their speedy recovery. I know how that feels, but I'm trying to heal my own mind and heart. Giving, versus taking, actually creates a pleasurable sensation, whilst generating healthy levels of dopamine in the brain, a chemical that is very high in people (1) who are chemically dependent (2) during sexual intercourse. Once the level of that chemical is stable, a person tends to feel relaxed. That's why expression is more calming than aggression.