Teenage years
Mom, I Love You...but
Mom, I love you… May 19, 2013 I can’t handle her anymore. She has no reason to treat me the way she does. I do everything she asks of me. I agree with everything she says. I try hard in school, so she is proud of me. I try to be like her because it makes her happy… I don’t deserve all the things she says to me. I am not lazy. I’m not a bitch.
By Jordan Payeur4 years ago in Confessions
I’m pregnant, mom
Growing up, there’s nothing a child wants to do more than to make their parents proud. Duh. At some point I thought it would be me to do so. I have 3 other siblings, my brother has the kindest soul serving for our country, my sister is a real estate beauty, and my little sister is the epitome of beauty and brains. Me? The hardest thing I had to do was crush my mother’s image of me. Of who she wanted me to be. I kept hidden for 4 months that I was pregnant, still in high school, at 18 years old, with no plans, no future. She cried to me about my options but I was already attached to my baby. In one of our biggest fights, I said everything and anything but I forgot to tell you one thing. When I found out I was going to be a mother, it took me back to the days where you gave up your food for me and my siblings. When you had to sleep on the floor so we can sleep on the mattress. Or when you made the extra effort to buy us something we wanted even though the price was a little on the higher end. Being a mother means to be selfless and yes I am scared. I’m scared I won’t be a mother like you, there’s no one in this world I want to be like more than you. I know the news was hard for you, it took you a while to come around. I’m glad that you did. I wanted your support more than anything in this world because I know you can make me feel okay. Like I’m a little baby again. As I get older, as YOU get older, all I want to do is make you happy, give you everything you deserve, and pay you back for being the best mother. Talking to you about my feelings hasn’t been the easiest after the news about the baby. I hope we can continue to grow our relationship, now that we will both be mothers.
By Brianna Lopez4 years ago in Confessions
Happy Mother’s Day
Happy Mothers day, I never told you... There are many things I never told you. There are many things that you will never know. From the very moment you drew your last breath, everything that followed are things that I can only hope you have come to know as time has passed. It is odd how life works. One moment I was a sheltered child who knew very little about the world. I was a child who couldn’t even order at a restaurant by myself. The next moment I was a thirteen-year-old with the world on my shoulders and expected to carry the weight you left behind. It was that moment that changed the course of my life. The day your eyes closed was the same day mine were opened.
By Rayn 4 years ago in Confessions
Dear Mother:
Dear Mother, I am sorry I never let you in to get to know me. I know, I was a cold-hearted bitch to you and everyone else. I had a lot of anger inside and didn't know what to do with it. I held it in for so long, that I want to let you know now everything you don't know about me. I was married in an arranged marriage with Brian Hugh Warner a.k.a Marilyn Manson. He didn't know what he was signing but he said he didn't think anything bad because it was my dad and he trusted him. Before dad died he had me sign some papers at the age 10 years old and I signed them without asking questions. When dad died I started using drugs and drinking and starving myself because I thought I was fat making myself throw up, and always weighing myself. I hated that I was alone and that no one understood but my dad. Dad use to have conversations with me about all types of subjects of life and I missed that. I hate that my father was taken and I have to suffer in silence and alone. I never had that connection with you mother. I hated you at that time for making me change who I was and trying to marry me off to any old man that came with money. I don't regret leaving your house and staying with my older half-sister. My sister was like a mother to me and she prepared me for being the best wife to the man that my father married me to. At this time, I was happy because even though my husband was older and didn't how old I was at the time we had a lot in comment. It was really scary at first to think that he was just like me at the time. We texted and shared ideas and shared poems with each other or even spoke about our day. We talked for about 6 months and he stated he had fallen in love with me and I told him mom that he shouldn't of fell in love with me because I was messed up. He really loves even till this day he has loved me mother. Even though you have tried to break us up and even called the cops on him during and after concerts of his, it has not worked we have been married since I was 10 years old and we are still married now and have 5 children. Mother, I have found that forgiveness is the key to shutting the door on all my negative situations you have put me in that made me chose Marilyn Manson my husband over you. I don't regret it because he gave me freedom and he was there for me when you my mother were not. He understood me and gave me advice and he was such a gentleman with me. He has been good to me, he has never laid a hand on me, or ever yelled at me. He will always be my best friend, boyfriend, husband and angel. Nothing anybody can tell about him will never changed that fact that I know him longer then anyone else. I forgive you for all that you did to destory my marriage and my relationship to my husband Marilyn Manson. I hope you can find it in your heart to understand why I kept your grandchildren away from you because I don't want my kids to catch any negative things from you and what you believe. I hope you can change your ways so you can see your grandchildren and can except my husband the father of my kids in our family. I love you mother and Happy Mother's Day.
By Devilisa Warner4 years ago in Confessions
From Your Son
"Hey Mom. I never told you this before, but...” …But now is a great time for me to let you know that the hardest thing I ever had to do was say goodbye. Goodbye to all the firsts we never got to experience as mother and son. For 24 years I’ve thought of all these experiences like, learning to love your replacement the way I innately love you. A fierce love that a younger me never thought was possible to share with anyone who attempted to take on the role of my mom; but as the fates would allow Grandma did right by me in the only ways she knew. So now it’s time for me to be open with you and share some life changing things I never had the chance to share with you. Like the coming out of a very strong minded but outwardly sensitive 15 year old boy, who cried while reading books and wrote poetry that seemed extremely wise beyond his years. Grandma made it clear that although I liked to believe that my coming out wouldn’t have been an issue for you, it very well would have. I say to that, it’s okay and I’m okay, even if you would not have been okay in that moment. Time would have allowed us to grow from it because you would have witnessed how my coming out allowed me the chance to wholly come into the man I am today; of this I am certain.
By Thomas Meyer4 years ago in Confessions
Oh, Mother
“Oh, Mother.” A deep sigh leaves me as I consider carefully what I want to say to you. Your advice stuck in my head forever includes this tidbit. Little lies will always spin out of control and become big lies. That was genius! I let out another sigh as I perform a facepalm.
By Shannon K. Abel4 years ago in Confessions
Dear Mom, I Don't Regret It. Runner-Up in Mother's Day Confessions Challenge.
Dear Mom, I have a confession: One of your most terrifying days was one of my happiest, and I don’t regret it at all. I am sorry for the fear and pain I caused. Looking at it as an adult, I can’t imagine what I would feel like if my child went missing for hours. The police. The AMBER alert. The wasted time and tax dollars. The fear and stress that I caused my family. Even muddying up your new car.
By Alex Casey4 years ago in Confessions
My secret
Hey mom, Here’s something I never told you… October 12, 2020 In online school at the beginning of the year I was doing ok and normally good. But as a couple months passed I started struggling. Yet same time thinking of the people I met online before. The ones you never trusted or always told me were bad guys and could hurt me. As much I was worried and scared I had put that fear way behind me and got connected with them again as times in school got harder. I stopped going to classes at times and gave up on a lot of my subjects along with all I needed to focus on. Yet somehow still managed to do…good? In the end I ended up having my good and bad times. Which is why at times I had seemed to lash out but I wouldn’t have ever meant it towards you. After all your all I care about and love. But in the end I was terrified of telling you and afraid I would get this taken away. I understand if they were bad and whatnot. I enjoyed their company, they made me feel happy and told me they were who they said they were and I remember when you told me that a lot of grown men or women do that. Only one had and she soon came forward to admitting it. She explained how she had trouble in school (public) and how her parents harmed her which they had. So I gave her another chance because I loved her and saw her as a sister. I had a few relationships with some guys as well that were nice at first, one two years older than me. Such a dear. Treated me so kind and loving but soon came to find out that he never meant any of it. Shocked and surprised as I was, I was used to it. Twelve relationships that had failed. I still didn’t give up. Because those I met online were helping me through what I was going through. I know I was falling behind after a year but things got harder and I got more stressed about having to hide this. You weren’t trying to be mean about it either but to protect me from the dangers which I never saw. I saw it as a way of you taking away things I loved doing which was a cruel lie my mind thought. And til this day I still am upset about it, but same time I have no regrets for not feeling bad because of how much this changed me and made me happy. Of course I feel bad for lying but for hiding some people I care about, no. After 2 more years of this and things are still going smoothly but I plan to tell you, I WANT to tell you. Because in the end, your the women who raised me, feed me, gave me everything I could want, and gave me a roof over my head. I’m thankful to have such a caring mother like you in my life and just know when you see this story and read it, I hope you know I never did this to hurt you or worry you more, but to show how much I love my friends. They always been there and helped me with so much. Helped me with work for school, played games with me when I was lonely or hurt. In the meantime you did all the same for me. And told me everyday and night on how much you loved me. Hiding the fact of the thing you told me not to do and over time helps me understand what I need to do the help protect my future kids. And my future friends kids, even my future siblings kids. I want to help change our world from the bad to the good in order to make it safer for the little ones we have alive today. I love you so much mother, more than you could ever know. So much it’s hard to express, and I hope in the future we can share more secrets like this
By Tang Wolf4 years ago in Confessions
Words Better Left Unsaid
Hey, Mom? I've always kept secrets from you, but they were always small, little, unimportant secrets. Like if I had flossed that night, or that 'no, it was not me who stole the last brownie, it had just magically disappeared.' All things that would be forgotten the next day, or even in the next hour. As I grew older, my secrets grew with me. I went from crying every night from fear of what lies in the dark, to crying miles away in the dead of night, bleeding with no way home.
By Molly Sunshine4 years ago in Confessions
Cops Kids and Preachers Kids...
Mom, you were valiant in every arena of your life! You made it look easy, being a single mom while running our household and holding down a full time job that demanded so much of you. Heavy is the heart that wears the badge. When dad left, you went into law enforcement to support your two children and purchase a house on your own; in the 1970‘s, when “Women flying solo” was a cross you bore like a Scarlett Letter; but you somehow made it into a fashion statement.
By Tammy Castleman4 years ago in Confessions
Just a pill
Dear mom, or Kendra, I'm not sure what you'd want me to call you. The darkest day in my entire life, was in the late spring of 2014. I was only eight years old, so I don't remember the exact date. It was rainy, the clouds just looked like I was awaiting my impending doom, and that's exactly what I felt like.
By Jaysin Lee 4 years ago in Confessions
