Thomas Meyer

From Your Son

"Hey Mom. I never told you this before, but...” …But now is a great time for me to let you know that the hardest thing I ever had to do was say goodbye. Goodbye to all the firsts we never got to experience as mother and son. For 24 years I’ve thought of all these experiences like, learning to love your replacement the way I innately love you. A fierce love that a younger me never thought was possible to share with anyone who attempted to take on the role of my mom; but as the fates would allow Grandma did right by me in the only ways she knew. So now it’s time for me to be open with you and share some life changing things I never had the chance to share with you. Like the coming out of a very strong minded but outwardly sensitive 15 year old boy, who cried while reading books and wrote poetry that seemed extremely wise beyond his years. Grandma made it clear that although I liked to believe that my coming out wouldn’t have been an issue for you, it very well would have. I say to that, it’s okay and I’m okay, even if you would not have been okay in that moment. Time would have allowed us to grow from it because you would have witnessed how my coming out allowed me the chance to wholly come into the man I am today; of this I am certain.