Rene Peters
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I write what I know, usually in the form of poetry. I tend to lean towards mental health, epilepsy, and loss/grieving.
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"New Year, New Me"
I'm going to preface this with... I know I did something very similar last year but this time around, I looked up statistics for an example of the less useful way. Plus, I have more subscribers so they will see it this time without scrolling through my profile (because why would they scroll through my profile without knowing something is there?)
By Rene Petersabout a year ago in Motivation
Psychology of Stalkers . Content Warning.
I dealt with an incident between the beginning of September, and hasn't stopped, that me want to write about this interesting topic. I wanted to share the story but I couldn't bring myself to. It was a TERRIFYING experience and writing what actually happened (rather than psychology and statistics) would be overwhelming for my mental health, seeing as the most recent incident was on December 28, only two days ago.
By Rene Petersabout a year ago in Psyche
My Last Day
My diploma above will have close ups of staff signatures further down. Before Program: Today is my last day at partial for my eating disorder. I need to feel ready for not having it five days a week but I don't FEEL ready. Logically, I think I am. I know I have made a lot of progress but those negative thoughts keep telling me that I haven't changed as much as I think. Except.... I saw my chart. Completions are way better. Behaviors have decreased, at least my initial behaviors (binging and purging). There has been some symptoms swapping the last week and a half (restricting instead of binging and purging). I know I'm stopping the restrictions way faster than I did before program. Before it, I was restricting for nearly a day after a binge/purge episode. That was on average two to three times a week.
By Rene Petersabout a year ago in Psyche
Shake it Out . Top Story - December 2024.
I have made so much progress in my eating disorder recovery that it is SCREAMING for control again. With this progress comes WAY more fighting. I thought it was bad a month ago and now I cry when meals are placed in front of me. I'm breaking but I need to stay strong... For myself. I'm doing that through music that helps me. One of those songs is Shake it Out. Almost every line has a deep meaning to what I'm going through.
By Rene Petersabout a year ago in Beat
Thanksgiving Dinner. Content Warning.
One chilly November evening, there was a family celebrating Thanksgiving in their barn, surrounded by a forest. Nicole, a 32 year old woman was looking for her younger sister, 26 year old Sierra, as their mother was working on setting up the table for their family's Thanksgiving dinner. After a few times of calling Sierra's name with no response, Nicole tried to call Sierra's phone. The phone started ringing about 10 feet away from her, in the grass. After walking over near the phone, Nicole noticed a red liquid and she froze as she realized that it had blood on it.
By Rene Petersabout a year ago in Fiction
Vampire. Content Warning.
I know I've done several song review/interpretation so here's another since it has been helping me cope with everything going on that's so hard to express with my own words. I thought getting help would make something, anything, easier by even a little bit it is so much harder than I thought. These reviews help me keep monitoring my emotions and what I need to work on most because otherwise, I just shut down my emotions which won't help at all.
By Rene Petersabout a year ago in Beat
Courage by Superchick . Content Warning.
It's truly painful how much I relate to this song. The amount of tears shed because I didn't know my struggle was so bad. I knew I had an eating disorder but didn't know how severe it was (thanks society for making me think you can't be starving while overweight) until I started to get the treatment I really need.
By Rene Petersabout a year ago in Beat
The Struggle is Real
wrote about my struggles with an eating disorder earlier this year, in May, but haven't mentioned it at all since (which is rather unusual for me) but that means I have major life updates, which will, as usual, cause me to add stuff that could be educational. (The educational part isn't guaranteed, I'm adding it because I don't plan on doing much editing, really just spelling so it's a guess.)
By Rene Petersabout a year ago in Psyche
What is FND? (Along with my experience so far)
I want to begin this article by going over some acronyms, which I will be using. FND stands for functional neurological disorder and is also referred to as conversion disorder. PNES and PNEA are interchangeable. They stand for psychogenic non-epileptic seizure and psychogenic non-epileptic attack.
By Rene Petersabout a year ago in Psyche
