healing
How to heal fully and properly.
Great Acts
7 years ago, things were hard, I mean REALLY hard. The company I had been working for demoted me to a different department. This also meant I took a paycut, and it was a harsh blow. The worst time of year for it to take place, Christmas. I had bills, lot's and lot's of them. How on earth was I even going to pay for Christmas that year? I told my parents, and since they were both on disability. There just wasn't a way for them to help me, but they did tell me not to get them anything that year. At 32 years old, how did I get to this place in my life? Why did I allow something like this to happen?
By Brooke Hudson5 years ago in Motivation
Positive Affirmations For Men 2021
About Positive Affirmations For Men 2021 Yes I am convinced beyond doubt that the positive affirmations can really change the flavor, tone and rhythm of our life — not only superficially but from the roots. Mine has changed and therefore, I am happy to share these affirmations with you.
By Sathesh Kumar5 years ago in Motivation
Thoughts
Hello subscribers! My first posting to vocal was a short and completely untrue crime story. I had so much fun writing it and really would love to compose a full version. I actually have stories I've started and saved in my google docs, some in need of editing, some needing to be continued, I have always since I can remember, had a passion for stories. When I was between 10 and 14 I was known among my friends to vanish for days, weeks, and sometimes even months! Eventually, they realized I could be found at our local library hidden for hours in vast piles of books, mostly of paranormal quality. The spooky, unknown has always been my personal favorite. I have had experiences with the paranormal since I was a young girl, at some point, I cut myself off from the experiences due to other people's beliefs. Recently over the last few years, I've learned a lot, and taken back what I love. This year, I am doing me. I am finding ways to do what I love, and in doing so, I've gained a lot. Maybe not money, but I have gained insight, love, insperation and a foundation that although may be odd by others account, is infact me. No one can live my life for me, and it's the same for you too!
By Alison Blanco5 years ago in Motivation
2020
This week has been difficult. I’m realizing I have not been as deeply emotional as my ego let me believe to be. I feel, but I have a difficult time expressing those feelings to others. Sometimes it comes out as anger, when subconsciously I’m feeling sad. These emotions are always projected into anger or I become completely passive, not truly thinking of the consequences. A Scorpio recommended I follow my birth chart closer. It was not until this week that I realized I have no water signs in my chart, and I panicked. Is this why I’ve lived in California for the last 5 years, away from all of my family, and as each year passes I feel less and less close to them? The reason why I can make a friend, be incredibly close for years, and explode out of each other’s lives like a burst of flames, with no rememberance of how it was before? I’d rather have sex with a stranger than someone I know, and when I have sex with a friend.. I normally don’t feel comfortable to be their friend anymore. How can I become a leader, a captain, someone that inspires others if I am always pissed off and creating chaos for myself. This feels like it’s getting worse for me. These are just honest thoughts that have ran through my head recently. I communicate my emotions with aggression. Now I’m hyper-aware and I need to choose when this is necessary. I feel jealous as I’m scrolling through my Instagram, i’m happy for everyone’s success, but it reminds me that I have stifled my creativity and my own successes. I just need to be honest with myself. Since August, I’ve been healing and letting go of someone who was incredibly dangerous for me. It was very traumatic, but I still have yet to really share and express what happened. Other than writing aggressive late-night posts on social media while intoxicated, then the following day seeing what I’ve written and feeling completely vulnerable. I am willing to admit that I was not perfect, but in comparison I was a Saint. He will never admit he was ever wrong, and that is what made me accept this next chapter in my life, solitude. This was the first time I was the one to say goodbye in a romantic relationship. I refuse to put all of the blame on this person, even as intense as they may be, because I am intense too. A different kind though. I was in a match for the last three years, and after my relationship has ended I know what solitude feels like. I do not have a lot of friends anymore, and I’ve had trouble connecting with new people. I’m great at small-talk when I feel like it, but there is a chance I will start feeling uncomfortable. I feel incredibly guarded right now, and I feel it’s necessary, but I don’t want to make a habit of it. I wrote this because I do not feel okay right now, and it feels like I’m finding myself all over again, and it makes me frustrated. This year was fucked up for us. That makes me feel like I’m not truly alone. I just want to do better, control and craft the fire I have and be practical about it. Be more patient, more caring, less judgmental. I forget how helpful it is to write when you’re troubled. To read and face your own thoughts like they are not even yours anymore. A collection of words for all of us. Let this be a key to open new doors and to do what is right, not what is easy.
By Tristan Sharky5 years ago in Motivation
This Entire Time
It started off by never being grateful. By being too stuck in my ways and for never appreciating the world for what it is. This precious place beaten down by the hatred and evil of people from what they assume as the worst of it by being the way they proceed to live their life.
By Keanna Barry 5 years ago in Motivation
Unseen
It’s 4 o’clock in the morning and I was all snuggled up in bed with Lexi right next to me. When all of a sudden my mother came in and quietly nudged me, telling me to grab the phone. As I say hello, I hear the words “he’s dead”. Papa died in a car accident driving home from the club, his friend had too much to drink and lost control of the car exiting off of the freeway on Bristol. Such a winding exit, one that you don’t want to drive straight on. The car had flown off the road and he flew out of the car hit a tree and the car landed right on top of him. I had no idea I would not see him ever again. Just when we were beginning to plan our lives together as mother and father to our unborn child.
By Jessica Wittmann5 years ago in Motivation
Scarred For Life
I never understood why I had to be the one with the burned legs and feet. Growing up, my one and two degree scars seemed to be an eye sore for all who interacted with me. I will never forget a cousin telling me I was ugly because of my burns. Of course, they may not have really meant anything by it, but it cut like a knife to hear. This sentiment was echoed by adults through the request to bring socks to cover my feet when I visited. These types of consistencies gave me a lasting infamy over what I looked like.
By Fatima C. Oliver5 years ago in Motivation
Faith
What does the word faith mean? For many when they see and think about the word faith it is in a spiritual context. It is believing in something or someone. Or believing that what you wish for and need will happen. Whether this be by the help of a higher power or by some other means, believing your hopes and needs will come true is having faith. Although I definitely do see faith in this context, I also see it in another very meaningful context. Faith is the name of a very important person that made a significant impact on my life and everyone’s life around her.
By Kimberly Shackelford5 years ago in Motivation
7 Beginner Steps: How to Forgive the Unforgivable
"The truth shall set you free, but first it'll piss you off." - Gloria Steinem Like many others during the pandemic, I lost my job due to a lack of hours and have been unemployed for about three months. During this season of uncertainty, I had a lot of time to sit and think.
By Conscious Cafe5 years ago in Motivation
Thoughts That Keep Me Up At Night
Love and relationships are not what they used to be. With every year that passes it is getting harder and harder to find the right person for us. Over the years so much has changed. Our morals and values have become compromised by social media and all the hype that comes with that. We live in a day and age that prefers texting as a form of communication instead of making a simple phone call. We would rather waste hours writing out our thoughts in the most unclear and most misinterpreted way in order to avoid facing the emotions we are sure to feel if we chose to communicate in person, having a face to face conversation wit those we love. We would rather leave and move on to the next hot thing that catches our eye instead of putting in the work that is required to have a deep and meaningful relationship. We have become shallow and unintimate. Intimacy is purely of the physical form now. Sex is the deepest and only form of intimacy we have come to know. Love has lost its value and the word its meaning. The word live carries as much weight as a feather and lasts half as long. We have taken the human out of humanity. It is too easy to avoid facing our loved ones and to desensitize ourselves now. It is hard to feel at all when your staring at a contact in your phone versus staring into the eyes of someone you have hurt. And because of that it is easy to walk away and give up on our partners because of the simplest defect or flaw in their character. We are no longer open to the fact that we are all human. We all make mistakes. And we all have some character flaws and no one is perfect. That is impossible. Yet it is what we expect. And that expectation is truely unfair. I am flawed like a mother fucker! I am well aware that it is my own fault for allowing myself to let other mother fuckers taint the way I conduct myself and for being too naive, too gullable and too willing to believe in, to hope in and too eager to put my trust in the lies and bullshit of fake ass people! It is my own fault for being in love with the idea of falling in love and getting that same love returned! It is my own fault for being weak and letting my dreams and fantasies of love and happily ever afters, allow me to put trust in those that did not even care about me or the well being of my heart! I allowed myself to be molded and shaped by false promises and betrayal. Long before you I was already broken. I hoped that someone would love me wholey and see that I am beautiful, heart and soul, and to show me how to love myself, how to give love to others in a functional way and to have a healthy lifestyle. I am so dysfunctional but I AM beautiful! everything I do is a result of hurt that runs too deep to just put a band aid on. My healing is going to take a lot of commitment, a lot of love, a lot of patience and understanding and that is a lot to ask of anyone and unfair. So I am not mad at you. I pray someone will love me that much and that it won't be a burden or seem like that much work because to them I am worth investing that in and much much more. Do I believe I'll ever find that? Or that that person exists? No I do not but its A beautiful fantasy and one that keeps me pushing. I am aware that my flaws are easier to see over my good. I do not need anyone to remind me of that..
By Vanessa Crawford5 years ago in Motivation
