healing
How to heal fully and properly.
7 Lessons Learnt From Going Through Loss in 2020
Her absence is like the sky, spread over everything. ~ C.S Lewis, A Grief Observed. 2020 has been a year of so many losses. Family, friends, vacations, careers, plans, summers and time. We’ve been stuck in our houses trying to salvage our time and function in a pandemic. We’re going through loss but we have no time to process it.
By Sarah Nderi5 years ago in Motivation
A brand new version of myself
I have been trying to find myself and I did. Who I was before isn’t the person I am now. As I found myself, I found the person I want to be and I became her. Brave, strong, forgiving, and happy. I am not perfect but I know who I am now. I know the brand new version of my self is better than the old.
By Gabriela Marcial5 years ago in Motivation
2020 A Year Of Reflection
2020 was a year that everyone anticipated and was excited for but had no idea what we were in store for. 2020 began a new year, a new decade, and a whole bunch of chaos that once only would be thought of for a movie or tv mini-series. If anyone told us that in 2020 New York City, the city that never sleeps would look like a ghost town, the world would be in a pandemic, or a global wake up call to end racial injustices would happen we would say please go to the nearest nuthouse, don't pass go, and don't collect 200 dollars. Unfortunately, way too many unforeseen events took place that will forever be grained into the history books and in our memories no matter how soon we want the year to end or to forget about it all. Let's take a quick look.
By Tammy Reese5 years ago in Motivation
Poverty's Incentives
On the campus of the elite Holycross University, Vanessa Blake sat under a large Oak tree, on one of many concrete benches. Her bag of books rested on a large square-shaped concrete table, half covering the red and black checker's board painted on top. Watching the leaves fall to the ground with the help of a gentle breeze, her thoughts on what she is going to write for her thesis.
By Annelise Lords 5 years ago in Motivation
Chaos.
Start writing..And one day you just wake up and you feel better. Not 100%, but you feel more yourself than you have all year.. more than you have the past few years. And that's the funny thing about getting comfortable in all the chaos.. you dont even know that it's wrong or how bad you're feeling until it's gotten way out of control but then you're too scared to leave it behind because you dont know who you are or who you will be without it. And usually chaos will still be chaos when you try to leave, and chaos will try to pull you back in and chaos will try to hurt you and itll probably get to its worst point and you will feel like you've hit your absolute lowest..especially when nobody believes that there is so much chaos in your life or when they choose to believe that you are in fact, the chaos. Itll be so lonely but keep going. One day you'll wake up and tell chaos to fuck off and you'll keep telling it to leave you alone and each time you do you'll be a little bit stronger. The storms it brings each time..the storms you've had to shelter your children from, will seem less and less because you've already gotten through the hurricane and the storm attempts really just seem pathetic. You'll look outside and shrug your shoulders at another rainy day and go about your business and show your children that there is still so much sunshine and warmth in their lives.. and you do this until the rain gets tired and stops, and you realize you really dont need the validation of others "believing you". Then that day comes.. you realized it's been a year and yes.. you wake up happy. And your friends and family who have held you and have tried for years to keep gluing back all your broken pieces, the ones you've pushed away because " it's not that bad, I can change the chaos, I can make it peace". The ones who have cried with you and wiped your tears because you felt so defeated. The ones who have talked you off the ledge, the ones who were there for the worst moments of your life.. they look at you and say "you look happy". Those are words you havent heard in a long time.. and you say "I feel happy" and for once you mean it. It's okay not to be 100% but knowing chaos doesnt have a place in your life or heart anymore.. looking at your children and seeing them smile and sharing moments of laughter with them without feeling the need to fake it to stop them from seeing pain is probably the best feeling you can have. The feeling of peace within yourself, the feeling of being free, the feeling of love in ways that weren't in the plan. I say alot "this isn't the life I planned for myself, I'm scared of doing it alone. I'm scared I wont be enough for them" and fail to realize that life has put me through what I needed to go through and life put me exactly where i needed to be. I'm finding who I am, and I'm NOT perfect.. I too have made storms where storms didnt need to be.. I have said things that should have been kept to myself because chaos shouldnt have been able to bring me out of character, that's on me and I own up to not being a perfect person but I try my best everyday to be who I need and want to be. I am enough because I love them and they know I love them, I'm enough because despite not being perfect they don't know the difference.. to them I am. To them I'm mom and mom is always there, "even when we dont understand why things are changing and it seems scary, mom is there to hold us."
By Jolene Babin5 years ago in Motivation
Just Keep Digging
Have you ever took a look in the mirror and didn’t recognize the reflection staring back at you? I have. Her eyes were filled with disgust and shame. The feeling of regret made the hairs on my arm reluctantly stand. I got goosebumps. How could she look at me with such a piercing stare? How could the one person whose love I crave, regurgitate at the sight of me?
By Jasmine Cates5 years ago in Motivation
