Vanessa Crawford
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I am a beautiful mess💋💔
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This Strange Thing Called Growth
I am at a new stage in my life and because of that I am thinking differently and that sets me apart from everyone I have ever known and loved. I am ready for something else. Something new. The next stage of my life I guezz you could call it.
By Vanessa Crawford5 years ago in Humans
Life Is A Beautiful Struggle
I have been through a whole lot of shit💩...I have loved a lot❤...I have hurt a lot😪...I have fucked things up a lot❌...I have Done a whole lot of Good😇...And I have done my fair share of bad😱 ( though not on purpose.)...I have made a whole lot of mistakes😩 ( one too many, and a few times, Just to be sure! Lol )...But I have learned from most of them...I think lol🤔...I have earned some scars, spiritual, emotional and mental ones. And im sure i have created some as well...I have loved hard. So hard that at times I have lost myself💗....I have fought harder👊... And boy oh boy have I cried!😭...I have felt Saddness in the deepest part of my heart and soul so great that i thought i was going to die. Believe me!💔....I have laughed like a maniac😂 and felt joy realer than anything I've ever felt in my life😃...I have tried Hard. ( That is an understatement.)🏋...And i have failed hard🤕...But through it all I have never ever given up💪...I have met a whole lot of people, of ALL types. Both good and bad👫...And I have made a lot of friends🤝Some long lasting and some just passing...and I have gained more than a few haters. (Hi Haters! Lol )👋...And boy have I grown🌱...And I have changed...for the better i believe🌺...But Never do I regret not a single minute of this beautiful struggle that is the journey we call life🤷...I have always been, and I will continue to be, BLESSED!👼( True Story! )✨...Even when my blessings felt more like lessons📚 ( And trust me there has been more than a handful of those times! )...And i wanted to throw in my cards, give up and fold, I did not!!!...I Kept my faith!💯 I kept my faith in God and I kept my faith in myself👸 And my faith is unshakable!...Through it all I still believe in my higher powe. I still believe in God🌄...And I know God gots me💯...And i believe that He has great things in store for me🏆...As a matter of fact I know it💡...This is my testamony...This is my journey...This is my story...And I can honestly say that I am truly happy with my outcome and all I have accomplished so far🤗...And my story is not finished...As a matter of fact it's far from over!🏃 I have not quit!⏳...I am still here and my story is still being written📝...And I ( WE! God and I😘 ) am the author✏...Many people👨👩👧👦 and events🎉 have contributed to my story and played a part in my narration🗨 but this is MY story!📖...Influence only goes so far...I alone decide the moral to it all and what direction my story takes and what the outcome will be...And so far I am satisfied! I really am!💯...What About you? What kind of story will you write?❤
By Vanessa Crawford5 years ago in Motivation
Thoughts That Keep Me Up At Night
Love and relationships are not what they used to be. With every year that passes it is getting harder and harder to find the right person for us. Over the years so much has changed. Our morals and values have become compromised by social media and all the hype that comes with that. We live in a day and age that prefers texting as a form of communication instead of making a simple phone call. We would rather waste hours writing out our thoughts in the most unclear and most misinterpreted way in order to avoid facing the emotions we are sure to feel if we chose to communicate in person, having a face to face conversation wit those we love. We would rather leave and move on to the next hot thing that catches our eye instead of putting in the work that is required to have a deep and meaningful relationship. We have become shallow and unintimate. Intimacy is purely of the physical form now. Sex is the deepest and only form of intimacy we have come to know. Love has lost its value and the word its meaning. The word live carries as much weight as a feather and lasts half as long. We have taken the human out of humanity. It is too easy to avoid facing our loved ones and to desensitize ourselves now. It is hard to feel at all when your staring at a contact in your phone versus staring into the eyes of someone you have hurt. And because of that it is easy to walk away and give up on our partners because of the simplest defect or flaw in their character. We are no longer open to the fact that we are all human. We all make mistakes. And we all have some character flaws and no one is perfect. That is impossible. Yet it is what we expect. And that expectation is truely unfair. I am flawed like a mother fucker! I am well aware that it is my own fault for allowing myself to let other mother fuckers taint the way I conduct myself and for being too naive, too gullable and too willing to believe in, to hope in and too eager to put my trust in the lies and bullshit of fake ass people! It is my own fault for being in love with the idea of falling in love and getting that same love returned! It is my own fault for being weak and letting my dreams and fantasies of love and happily ever afters, allow me to put trust in those that did not even care about me or the well being of my heart! I allowed myself to be molded and shaped by false promises and betrayal. Long before you I was already broken. I hoped that someone would love me wholey and see that I am beautiful, heart and soul, and to show me how to love myself, how to give love to others in a functional way and to have a healthy lifestyle. I am so dysfunctional but I AM beautiful! everything I do is a result of hurt that runs too deep to just put a band aid on. My healing is going to take a lot of commitment, a lot of love, a lot of patience and understanding and that is a lot to ask of anyone and unfair. So I am not mad at you. I pray someone will love me that much and that it won't be a burden or seem like that much work because to them I am worth investing that in and much much more. Do I believe I'll ever find that? Or that that person exists? No I do not but its A beautiful fantasy and one that keeps me pushing. I am aware that my flaws are easier to see over my good. I do not need anyone to remind me of that..
By Vanessa Crawford5 years ago in Motivation
