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Lost in my Thoughts
Every day I wonder and dream about the life I was meant to live. I picture myself in the most vivid places at the most perfect moments, living out my dreams, living care free and without a doubt in the world about where I am or what I'm doing. I miss the feeling of being content with where I was exactly meant to be. I long for that feeling and that place daily. I want to be there one day. Oh how I long to be there so badly.
By Saturnina Dominguez5 years ago in Motivation
How I Survived The Most Traumatic Year of My Life and Lived to Tell the Tale
You are strong. You are courageous. You are fearless. You are an inspiration. These are words I have heard time and time again throughout my life. I have never truly believed those words, however, until today.
By Tereson Dupuy5 years ago in Motivation
Dear 2020,
Dear 2020, The expectations and plans I had for you were filled with a lot of firsts and unknowns. Most of those so called plans were major changes to what I’ve known thus far, but probably for the first time ever since I’ve come into existence I was excited for that ginormous amount of change. That’s until the world came to a screeching halt because of COVID-19. I’m not going to lie, I was very excited at first to just simply get a break. I was overworked and exhausted in every way possible so, my outlook on the world shutting down looked more like a blessing in disguise than anything else. That is until, unemployment never came and I got bored. Then the anxiety disorder that I didn’t think I had, became assigned to me like a role in a play and every mental issue I neglected for years shortly came to the forefront. For the first time ever, I had no distractions or excuses. I actually had to live with my issues and enjoy my own company which needless to say I hated every second of it. It also made me wonder how I have any friends because that shit was not fun. I knew I needed help, but I excused it for being busy. Having to sit with myself everyday with nothing to do, nowhere to go, and nobody to see really forced me to work on the relationship I had with myself. It turns out the most important relationship in my life was the one I neglected the most. I had a lot of anger and trauma that needed to get handled properly and in a healthy manner, which meant that I actually had to take the first steps in getting help and not just say that I’m fucked up and go on with my day like I didn’t start a war with my closest loved ones. I said last year that I was going to make my mental health a priority and I’m happy to announce I finally did. It only took a pandemic for it to happen, but beggars can’t be choosers. So, I think the biggest lesson I’ve learned over this past year was being content in your own presence is the most powerful thing you can do for yourself. 2020 has been a shit year for literally everybody, but I think it’s been a key year in everybody’s life regarding growth and change. It’s not the year anybody wanted, but it’s the year we needed. 2020 is exactly like 20/20 vision. This was the year of seeing everything for EXACTLY how it is. It was for seeing, that there is beauty in everything falling apart at the same time. We all survived the chaos not because it doesn’t throw us off or because it doesn’t hurt. We survived because we shift, we re-evaluate what’s important to us and what needs our attention. The “little” moments aren’t actually that little; they’re the things that have saved us, always mattered, and held weight despite us making it out like they’re just little things we happen to do everyday. 2020 has felt like a sledgehammer to the head a million times over, but it has actually been the best year of my life so far. It’s made me face challenge after challenge that I’ve learned to adapt and overcome. This year has forced me to grow exponentially whether it be emotionally or mentally. Definitely not physically because if you know me personally you know I haven’t grown since maybe my sophomore year of high school. This year has also brought back a true ride or die and has allowed me to make a few new ones who mean the absolute world to me. You know who you are…*clears throat* best bitches. So although this year has been horse shit for everybody in its own little way, nobody would be who they are in 2021 if it wasn’t for 2020.
By B5 years ago in Motivation
The virus that cured my sickness
"Ahhhhhh" I yawn and stretch as I wake up "ugh another day". My body emerges from the depths of my sheets, my feet touch my soft rug that lays on top of my wooden and very cold floor. No socks I hop to my bath mat, wash my face, brush my teeth, brush my hair the normal routine day after day. As I spit in the sink rinsing the last bit of toothpaste, I look up pause in the mirror, a faint whisper "today will be a good day" I laugh " fuck that you know that's a lie". I walk to my desk, I look down at my calendar may. 30th once again I laugh and say "fuck, when will this end". Distant voice appearing " Covid-19 has killed hundreds of Americans, a virus we still don't understand arriving from a foreign country, spreading globally, when will this end and when will lockdown end" "Phil, I think millions of Americans deserve that question yet what is our president doing to help fight this". Interrupting yelling at the tv my mother says " fuck that president he hasn't done shit but lock us in our homes" I agree but yet I don't agree if we stay inside we slow the spread if we leave the house hundreds die, everyday I contemplate what will happen I try to lead my day with hope but as more die and people begin to rebel against false justice being misinformed, knowing nothing else people get scared and panic that's when I loose hope, those are the days I loose hope. As night approaches I shed a tear not knowing the future.
By Astro Divine 5 years ago in Motivation
It’s Perfectly Fine Not to Have Big Goals This Year
This Year, Can I Stop and Smell the Roses? It’s been days that I'm racking up my mind on what goal to set and race to finish this year. I have been prepping to give the 12 week year a try and ambitiously envisioned to achieve a year’s goal in 3 months. That would give me four goals done instead of one.
By Olivia Marlene5 years ago in Motivation
A Breath of Fresh Air
Everyone at some point has felt like they were at the peak of their lives. Maybe you feel like you peaked in high school and the days of athletics and love from cheerleaders were the things that made you you. Grades? I’m an athlete don’t worry about it. Parents? Love me I’m the star. Just a regular stud since day one.
By [email protected]5 years ago in Motivation
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Ever since I knew what materialistic things were, I also understood that we were poor. One pair of black sneakers for the school year, one uniform, which now as a mother I realized meant that my mother had to work harder at maintaining it, for us to look presentable. I have always been grateful, if you ask anyone who knows me, I can make a whole meal out of 5 bucks, less if I am being honest; I once had a dollar for dinner, I got two coffee cakes and a juice, until 8am the next day when I would be eating a hot breakfast at JobCorps. I am not scared of not having, I fear having and not being grateful for it, people forget that once they have nothing when they get everything. I woke up today, to my 3rd bonus this year, 2020, and the overwhelming feeling of emotional exhaustion hit me, it hit me hard, I cried like a baby, I cried because I feel grateful for all I have, but I also feel the deepest sense of needing to help those who have not been as fortunate as I have.
By Lucinet Luna - The Author 5 years ago in Motivation
TNT
287 days, but whose counting at this point, right? Only X amount of days to go in quarantine but who doesn't love the cozy comfort of the same four walls they've been staring at for the past 6,888 hours? My bedroom is tired of looking at me too, you're not alone. 2020 has brought many obstacles far and wide, big and small, local and globally, leaving no stone unturned and no human unscathed. As quick as the new decade came, it was just as quick to relinquish our excitement to start a new chapter obviously having other plans, and for that I can honestly say 2020; you will not be missed.
By Jazmyne 5 years ago in Motivation
Before You Say Goodbye
I'm tired of 2020. I'm tired of Covid, and social injustice, and severe political division, and I'm sure I'm not alone. We all know that 2020 brought on unimaginable circumstances that robbed us of an entire year of comfort and joy by stripping away what we considered to be a normal life. However, I fear the losses we suffered are even greater than we realize. I fear we lost a year of valuable moments in our lives because we were too focused on the chaos and suffering that surrounded us.
By Marci Brodock5 years ago in Motivation
Closure On My Covid Dreams
During my third month in lockdown with my family this year, I began to experience horrible nightmares. I ignored them at first. However, I began to worry about them after a bunch of my dreams became recurring ones day by day in quarantine, along with the experiences of sleep paralysis and night terrors. Don’t get my wrong, I had dreams like this before the pandemic growing up but never like this before while in quarantine. It was horrible and felt as if life was slowly draining out of me day by day. I thought I was slowly losing my life bit by bit as a result. I didn’t know who I was anymore as a person. I couldn’t comprehend what was going on. I even forgot why I existed in general. I felt as if I was going crazy!
By Alna Armonia5 years ago in Motivation
2020
2020. Perfect vision. The truth is, we always see better in retrospect. After the lessons are learned and we can look back on the process with the knowledge we gained from it. 2020 gave us the opportunity to start focusing our vision, to start working towards what we hoped 2020 would have been for us. We were forced into time with ourselves and our loved ones. There was nothing else to do but bear witness to the broken systems and ideologies our society has been functioning under. But it also made us see things about ourselves that maybe we don’t really like so much and exposed us to those in our lives who may not be the best for our authentic selves and our futures. 2020 was a shit year, but the truth is that if we use our toughest struggles as a time for growth, it could have been a year for serious self-advancement.
By Melancholy, Mania, Momming, and Marijuana5 years ago in Motivation
