healing
How to heal fully and properly.
Light in the Dark
2020 was a very rough year for me personally. I am sure I wasn’t the only one who suffered due to covid and the restrictions, but mentally, the past year made me question so much. 2020 was the year that my ex-boyfriend and I had broken up (after being together for 3 years), I had been laid off of work after just getting a permanent position, and I had gotten into a car accident a week after my birthday. It was really tough each time trying to get back up and continuing on my life, but I knew I had to. (Even though everyday I would question if it was necessary)I struggled a lot mentally, wondering if I was good enough for anything. I couldn’t keep a man, a job or even a car for that matter. Financially, the last two hit me hard and making ends meet was extremely difficult. I honestly thought about giving up. It wasn’t until I felt a positive impact from someone that I was able to keep persevering on.
By Jennifer5 years ago in Motivation
Through Cracks in the Sidewalk
October is not a friendly month to be outside. Not, at least, in the city. Ask anyone, and they’ll tell you that sitting on cold concrete is not a pleasant thing to do, but any normal person doesn’t do it for all that long: to really understand the cold you have to be sitting behind a little sign that sums your existence up with pleading black sharpie on the inside of a liquor box. You needed your spine up against the unyielding, spiritless rock, and your tailbone parked uncomfortably on a fold in your jeans, trying to find some variety in the numbness that a thin nylon sleeping bag won’t provide. The real cold doesn’t kick in until you don’t have an option to get away from it, and it takes on that broody, seductive whisper telling you that it’s here for you now, that it will hold you while you fall asleep if you let it, and if you wake up, it will be there waiting.
By Shiv MacFarlane5 years ago in Motivation
My Little Happiness
It has been over one year since I left that eerie house. If I was to describe myself as a person from that year, it would be something like this: "A feeble simple minded peacemaker" Though I still think I have those qualities in me now; stronger that is. The me from a year ago is the me now, but more complex.
By Zoya Ali5 years ago in Motivation
New Year, New Life
A new year. This year is the first year in 10 years I will live alone. The first year in 10 years I am able to make my own decisions, and live my own life. First time for what seems like centuries I am free. Resolutions seem weak paltry things for the number of things that have changed in my life as of 2021. You see, my husband, a man I was married to when I was too young to legally drink and I gave a third of my life to, decided he would rather have one of my friends than me. I can no longer feel this as a loss, the losing is done and has been cemented in three weeks of bargaining. The pain was felt during holidays not only spent without family due to Covid-19, but without tradition 10 years in the making. 2021, is time for healing. Time for living forward, but keeping full record and knowledge of the past, not to be possessed by it but to learn from it. I am done being a pawn and possession, a good wife, quiet, only to be stepped on to achieve satisfaction, or get something. 2021 I will learn what it feels like to actually be loved, to have people care, for caring sake not for the sake of what they can get if they seem caring. I am once again allowed to cut my hair, and have friends, to listen to music I love, and heal because I can once again believe I am worth healing, caring for, and having friends. This is my fresh start. My life has been scraped down to foundations, and my proverbial fields torched by a man and a friend I loved. However, as after a brush fire, the green sprouts are pushing back through and in a few months the only signs of fire, will be the snags and even they may still yet live. My life is all a new start. This is a story free of politics, for when your house is burning, you pay little attention to your neighbor’s flood. 2020 for me started well, I went back to school, I began to live again. 2021 is rewriting that history, showing me my own blind trust and the lies I believed. As the cow who was bought for a taste of milk, and then imprisoned for a life an open gate, though it be wreathed in thorns, is sweet for its promise of freedom, no matter the marks left. I have found my companions, friends who stayed away because of a man they didn’t like to hear speak and herald his own intelligence. A dog, new to me, but also left like me, banished from what he thought would be his forever home. We are the rejects he and I, we are building our own life, trapped by time and responsibility, but free to live as we see fit. My new year is a herald of a new life, building my own future, with permissions neither begged, nor bestowed. I rebuild who I was before, before the 10 years of ham handed reshaping, when my personality was my own. Though now older, wiser, and more understanding of the flaws of others, as I have been shown many of mine. My resolutions are to learn to forgive, without the curse of forgetting. To live not having to ask permission, and to not apologize for being alive. To realize that I am not the problem, even though I have many, and I do not and did not deserve for my world to be demolished. However, I am determined to be made better for it. To be unashamed of the person I am becoming, finding value in me and not relying on the evaluation of others. These are not resolutions, not truly, they are survival. They pit me for the bad days. Some days are like open wounds, everything hurts. These are my poultice and bandage, a shield for the days when things seem like I am drowning. So these resolutions are for the good days when I can feel the ground beneath my feet and smell the freedom in the air, as well as the bad when I wake up in the morning and wonder how my heart doesn’t clatter when it beats as its nothing more than broken pieces. I have been broken, but I will not stay that way, instead I will be reforged, standing under my own power sustained by a religious faith like an oak, defiant of my pain. Happy New Life.
By Laura Killgore5 years ago in Motivation
The END of a RAVEN SOCIETY
As society begins to feel the overwhelming sensation to go. Literally, to just go anywhere. But,everywhere seems unfamiliar. The light is not right. The people are not outside. "Where is the business where are the parks"? You may ask yourself. The warnings came with a disease and now we are even more glued to our phones. We have become the follower leading to nowhere. Scared of what we cannot see we stay hidden. As raven's in the dark, not even a step or you could die tomorrow. The average american could have figured out that you can die at any second. Life was already on the line for us. The working class. The people who fight for their bread and damn well better be happy we can put it on the table. Yeah that bread. That was America. Now we are scared and withered about the fact that we are not in control. No money or wish could bring to life if death is around it stays. They say thats how the virus is. Let us all say it is. Well social distancing is good. The governments are doing what they can to control the aspect of this terrible nightmare. Let us pray that we not loose faith and keep our heads above water. No one! I repeat No one can take what is our or tell us how to live our lives. But we can choose to help another fellow neighbor than to sit like raven in the dark scared of what might happen. Life is short make worth it!
By Andrés Muñoz5 years ago in Motivation
The Day My Life Changed
I used to say that my life changed forever when my parents passed in 2004 and looking back, it did alter my life in some way. However, when I found out I was pregnant in January of 2010 I said again that my life is forever changed. I knew that I would do things very different now that I had a little me watching the way I moved. For years, it was just me and her and my life was indeed changed because of her listening and watching even when I thought that she wasn’t paying attention. Also, in 2014 I gave birth to a Sun and again I said that my life was forever changed. He was born with Sickle Cell SS disease as well as G6PD and life was an uphill journey for my little family. I was his primary caregiver and continued to do what I do best and that is to take care of those that I love.
By Sharina Bazemore5 years ago in Motivation
Masking Questions
Strange times make stranger people, and people strangers. Some of us have been hiding behind masks for years, and now that it's so commonplace, what once made us outcasts now unites us. They tell us these masks are for safety, but weren't the ones we were wearing before for safety, as well? Who will we be when they tell us that it's time to show our faces again? Will you remember? Will I? Do we even want to be those people again?
By Daniel Pittman5 years ago in Motivation
The Other Side of Me
I’ve spent the last seven years of my life healing from all that I’ve been through. I’m the teenage parent that struggled. I’m a girl who has been sexually and physically abused. I’m the girl whose mother and father were heavy drug users throughout the most important years of my life. But now I’ve awakened from my victimizing coma. I can maneuver through life easier. I know the good signs in life and the bad. I’m ready for championship in my life. I can see the process so clearly in my head. Get out and meet someone nice and let the universe do its work.
By Nikita Harris5 years ago in Motivation
Cleaning House
It has been 22 days since I left my apartment complex. Covid is terrible in Los Angeles and the simplest tasks like going to the grocery store or pumping gas have been deemed as high risk of exposure. After all of the horror stories I have heard from friends, strangers, and family, I have chosen to minimize my chances of getting sick and completely went into hiding from the world.
By Ant5 years ago in Motivation
Concussions
For 13 years I played the sport of American football. Mainly as a center and defensive tackle, so I took a lot of shots to the head. Every fall from the ages of 6 to 20 I played the sport I loved and studied more than anything else on this planet. Unfortunately participating in that sport also derailed my life in my early 20’s due to multiple and repeated undiagnosed concussions. I’m still dealing with some issues stemming from the concussions, but it’s improving by the day. Please if your son or daughter decides to play a contact sport, keep an eye on them. Do not let them continue if they’re not fit. I assure you that the hell that I’ve been put through isn’t worth it. Migraines, anxiety, depression, dark thoughts were all part and parcel in a normal day for me. Now at 26 I’m greatly improved and I couldn’t be more thankful, but I still have to be careful and be mindful of how my mind is reacting to stimuli.
By Cody DeWeever5 years ago in Motivation
Be Unapologetic About Your Self-Care
In our bid to live a peaceful, successful, and healthy life, there are some steps that we as individuals must intentionally take. To achieve all these, one has to prioritize self-care. Why is this so? Self-care is simply when you realize that you need to build and develop your present state. It encompasses positive and healthy physical and mental well-being. Having established what self-care is, one can go further to state that protecting one's energy is a core aspect of self-care and being unapologetic to external influences, especially the negative ones. Author and wellness consultant, Alex Elle, mentioned that: "Energy is contagious, positive and negative alike. I will forever be mindful of what and who I am allowing into my space."
By Dr. P. Gurley5 years ago in Motivation
I Accepted Silence Because I Was Afraid
Why am I not writing what I’m thinking? That’s the real question, isn’t it? I’ve been holding back and playing small for a lot of reasons, but most of them are clearing away. It’s my time. It’s time for me to spew out the feelings and experiences that are mine and mine alone.
By Tree Langdon5 years ago in Motivation
