It's The End
Sayonara, I'm Out of Here
For years I have listened to you
Moan and complain
Grumble and whine
About everything in your life
Over the decades I have watched as you
Degraded and cussed
Demeaned and shamed
Those you proclaimed to love the most
Daily I’ve been a witness to your
Meltdowns and hissy fits
Blowouts and scenes
As you claimed your worth above all
😡
For years I have listened as you
Put me down
Making all my fault
About everything in your life
Over the decades I have watched as you
Whittled me away
Cursing my name
While you proclaimed your love for me
Daily I have been a witness to your
Egotistical abuse
Narcissistic neglect
As you claimed your worth above me
😢
For years, I have allowed you to
Insult and shout
Taunt and upbraid
Making up all kinds of accusations about me
Over the decades I have made excuses as you
Wronged and denigrated
Ill-used and defamed
Me as punishment for some stupid offense
Daily, I have allowed you to
Mistreat and bully
Prosecute and oppress
For you made me feel as if I had no worth.
😡
For years, I was the one who was
Weak and confused
Lost and afraid
Because of your mistreatment, you made me feel I deserved
Over the decades, I was too afraid to
Be alone
Leave
Because you made me think I could not live without you.
Daily, I have thought you'd
Hung the moon
Held the key to my heart
For you could make me feel so good at times.
😣
But now, I see ahead of me
A silver lining
A rainbow
Waiting to embrace me
For now, I have the
Hope
Strength
For a change, to do what I never could do before.
For now, something has
Changed
Happened
This will allow me the freedom to do what needs to be done
🌈
For now, the time has come to
Put me first
Move on
So I may regain the me that was lost to you
For now, the day has arrived for me to
Pick up
Put back together
The pieces of my life that you completely shattered
For now, the year has arrived and I can finally say
Goodbye, sayonara
Adios, good riddance
To a toxic relationship I allowed, because of feelings of unworthiness
🙌
You can only blame yourself
There is no one left to blame
You took the pure love I had to give
And turned it into my chains
You’ve pushed my unworth
Telling me always that I am at fault
When in all of reality, I never once rocked the boat
My heart you have taken into your hands
You have twisted it until it had no more to give
After you have used me up, you left me an empty shell
Nothing I did was ever good enough
Perfection, you did expect, but you never had it to give
Denying any mistakes, you claimed I did all the wrong
You pushed the last buttons the day you shoved me to the wall
Now you see my back is straight, my mind is set
Everything is made up, you can’t change the plan
It upsets you, so temper tantrums abound as we go about our daily lives
You break dishes, kick the trash can, and scream out loud
Like you could get the heavens to change my mind when nothing ever will
I have put up with a lot of your shit throughout the years
Overlooked many transgressions because you always came home
I know you were faithful, but there is more to a marriage than loyalty
There's love, honor, cherish, and to protect
Frankly, you have not given me any of this
It is time for me to say enough of this shit
I am moving on, it is time for a change
It is time for me to go on my way
I have got to learn to love myself first, and believe me, I will find a way
There is a change coming on
You are not going to like the outcome
The winds for once, are blowing my way
I will be able to cut the ties that bind us and move completely on
Finally breaking my chains, being able to afford to change my fate
You will be all alone because of the choices you have made
I have found a place to go
Nobody is staying here with you
Everybody is tired of all your drama
The shit you pull has gotten old
So, we are packing all our things
Loading up the U-haul
As we leave the drive, we will all wave a one-fingered goodbye
A/N:
If you are a victim of domestic violence, don't wait until it's too late to leave. Get out now.
Victims can call 1-800-799-SAFE(7233)
To find out how to get involved:
National Domestic Violence Hotline
PO BOX 90249
Austin, Texas 78709
Administrative Line: (737) 255-3150
Or click the link below to visit their site ⤵⤵⤵
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I hope this is not biographical. If so, I am sorry and hope you are safe. I love the lines "You took the pure love I had to give And turned it into my chains" It is so true that so often love is used to chain us.
Now that’s a breakup poem. So glad and happy and all the other words you’re putting you first. And the AI pics were perfect
Glad you found the silver lining in the end! I can relate so much to your poem, the vulnerability is so raw and deeply touching. And congratulations on your leaderboard placement! Well deserved.
MC sadly this was relatable, but also empowering!! I loved it!! Congrats on third place for the leaderboard!!
Wooohooooo congratulations on your Leaderboard placement! 🎉💖🎊🎉💖🎊
Loved it especially these two lines, "You took the pure love I had to give, And turned it into my chains"!!! You nailed domestic abuse!!!
This is powerful. You are gifted!
Wow - This was hard for me to read. So raw and heart breaking. Double wow, and I am glad that you are improving your situation. It's upsetting to read something like this, and know it is true no less. After writing about the murder of my son - I started to write smile articles. I am in the process of making them all into an amazon book. I haven't published them all on writing sites, saving some for the book. What did you call me spreader of smiles. I don't feel comfortable calling you Mother because I am 75 myself, so if you don't mind what is your first name? Keep on smiling - maybe now since your escape you will have something to smile about. Praying for you!!!
Such utter strength! If this is based on reality, I’m so very proud of you ♥️ Either way, what a remarkable and powerful piece.
Damn this was so raw… and justifiably angry. I hope this is not based on personal experience and something you’re going through?
Great work, the empowered words you shared with us are grounded and relatable. This is what poetry is all about, shedding light on the darkness of humanity and giving hope to those who may have post sight. <3 <3 <3
Powerful poem. It takes strength to leave.
Combs, this is incredibly powerful and deeply resonant. Thank you for sharing something so personal and important. You are greatly loved, Combs! 💝🌟💖
Hey M Combs! Effectively articulated. ☺️ An excellent rallying cry yet I hope this was not something inspired by your experiences. 💚
Oh gosh, this felt so real. I don't know if this is something you wrote to highlight abuse, or if you're experiencing it. But I really hope you're okay, MC. Just know you have so much worth on this little planet of ours. ♥️♥️
This was soooo powerful! And I especially loved the middle finger salute at the end!
I felt the pain the MC endured for so long. Your words were effective. Sometimes we give evil too many chances to correct their ways. And most of the time these people/men never change their wicked ways without help that they never seek. Nicely done, Mother!
Final straws are indeed heavy, but one will finally break the camel's back.
"It ends with us." The movie title/mantra yet to be learned & held dear by far too many.
Wow, you managed to do this in a powem for the challenge, Impressive. Well said and you didn;t hold a damn thing back. (Although I did get a kick out of the picture at the end. The hand and arm mixed left and right. crazy Ai)
Well said! All abusers of any sort belong to a dark pit and to remain alone.
Sharon, thank you for sharing such an incredibly powerful message. ❤️
This could be an entry to the resign challenge. I love the supportive piece 💕 💓 I hope it help someone who needs to make a healthy move out of a toxic relationship
This was powerful, and hits close to home. My mother was a victim of domestic violence for many years. Luckily, she made it out and remarried an amazing man whom she was married to for nearly 30 years before she passed away.
Excellent words. and too often domestic abusers are given chances because they "lost control". They never lose control in public or at work. They are totally in control