Friendship Is An Illusion
Full disclaimer: much of this entry will be a rant because I'm upset! Let me preface it by saying, I love my friends, they are my chosen family! There has never been more than one friend in my life, at a time, since childhood! Do you know how special it is for me to call you a friend!? Do you know how much it takes for me to trust you with that title? Call it CPTSD or whatever, I've had to let go of friendships in my life that I wasn't ready to let go of... so, why are you leaving now? After everything we've been through and for all the times I've been there for you? In your loneliness, in your grief, in your feeling unloved? What about all the times when you said that you understood me and that I'm a lot like you? Were those all words of manipulation? Was there any truth to those words? Why lie your relatability to me? Why tell on yourself, like what they say narcissists do...? I never felt like you were a narcissist, although you did keep yourself and your true nature secret and you were often the victim in your stories... You did love bomb me...
