Brilainey Creates
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I am a fantasy writer that is currently focused on The Girl Who Witnessed Death, a fantasy horror book based around a young child who saw her mother die and later faces death himself.
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My Infertility Journey
It's weird to me how sometimes your body just knows when there are going to be complications. From my teenage years, I was afraid that I would struggle with infertility. At the age of 20, I began fertility testing as I had already been unsuccessfully trying to get pregnant for over a year. Sadly, an unfortunate event when I was seventeen landed me with an STI that when untreated can cause damage to reproductive organs. I am unaware how long I had the STI, but immediately got treatment for it. The first treatment, however, was unsuccessful and I had to go through it again to fully get rid of it. The STI was asymptomatic with me, so if I didn't start fertility testing I may have never known.
By Brilainey Creates2 years ago in Families
Butterfly Effect
From a young age, I believed that everything happens for a reason. I still believe that. Looking back at my life, I realized that if even one thing in my past had been just slightly different, I could be somewhere entirely different. My life had been put on one very specific track from long before I was born. I don't know much about how I got from place to place as a child, but the earliest I can remember that had a large effect on where I ended up was when I moved from Texas to Utah. My father lost his job in Texas, which resulted in us losing our house. Because of this, my parents decided to move to Utah to be closer to my mother's family. For the last half of my fourth grade year I was living in my uncle's basement. If we hadn't moved in with his family, we probably would have been homeless.
By Brilainey Creates2 years ago in Journal
Fear
I have let fear rule my entire life. I am twenty-three years old and am not courageous enough to face my fears. Some of those fears are fairly common, like my fear of spiders and snakes. Others can be more complex, like my fear of being abandoned. Growing up, the people around me shamed me for my fears, which ironically made my fears even worse. I have been struggling with anxiety for the past ten or so years, and it's to the point where I will refuse to do the things that I want to do the most just because I'm afraid of trying new things. One of the things I always wanted was to be a singer, but because of how my sisters treated me, I became afraid of failing or looking dumb. I stayed in the worst relationship of my life because I was afraid of being on my own again. I wanted to be on YouTube, but got afraid of being in the public eye, even though I probably wouldn't do well enough to have an audience anyways.
By Brilainey Creates3 years ago in Journal
Unmotivated
Twenty-three years of life, and it still hasn't been long enough to completely get on my own two feet. I've been through a lot in my life, thinking that by this time I'd have my life together a bit more. Granted, I do have my bachelors degree in teaching, which is something I have wanted to do since I was really little. I'm also starting on my masters degree in business. However, I always thought that I would have a house and a family already. I have an amazing spouse, being married for almost a year now, but we're stuck living in a too small apartment since we can't seem to get approved to buy a house of our own. We've been trying to have a child of our own, unsuccessfully, which has been a huge hit to our motivation to do just about anything. I still want to get a house that has plenty of room for what we want to do as well as give us the space needed to provide for new additions to the family when we finally succeed, but after talking with a few people, it seems like finding a house that we like that fits our needs in a location that we'd be okay with is so far out of reach.
By Brilainey Creates3 years ago in Journal
Thriving
Based on a true story When you grow up constantly being told that you will never amount to anything, you tend to start believing them. You give up on your dreams and ultimately yourself. You lose faith that anything will ever actually get better. You make yourself comfortable in a life that isn't worth living, sending yourself down the unmistakable path of seemingly incurable depression. Everything just seems to get worse, and nothing can seem to help. The world around you begins to die, keeping you stuck where you despise being. At least that's what happened to me.
By Brilainey Creates3 years ago in Motivation
My Story Part 2
I firmly believe that everything in life happens for a reason. I don't know what that reason is, but I know that if anything would have happened differently throughout my life, I wouldn't be where I am right now. I don't remember most of my childhood. I was born in Kingman, Arizona and lived there for the first couple years of my life. I lived in Tracy, California for about four years, which I don't remember too much of. The most I remember from this house was playing with dolls in front of the door when my father came home from work. He didn't know I was there and he hit me in the face with the door when he entered the house, knocking my loose tooth out. I later lost that tooth somewhere in my house and never found it.
By Brilainey Creates4 years ago in Confessions
To My Hero
I may seem a little cliché, but I would have to say that the biggest hero in my life is my sister. She has saved me multiple times without realizing it and was practically my mom for most of my life. I wouldn't be who I am today without her and I could never thank her enough.
By Brilainey Creates4 years ago in Families
Teachers in 2022
Teachers nowadays are so undervalued and there are currently multiple bills throughout the states that are trying to get passed that are pretty much giving parents complete control over the curriculum and even taking teachers jobs. Home schooling has always been an option and as long as the students knew the basics to pass a GED test, the parents could teach what they please. They are fighting to remove the standards that the state creates which has already been lowered with the "no child left behind" stuff.
By Brilainey Creates4 years ago in Education
A Small YouTuber's Journey
Being a small YouTuber has definitely been an interesting experience. I only have thirty-something subscribers, so I'm still a really small channel. I posted videos pretty frequently for about a year, but I stopped for the last couple years. For the most part, I was only posting vlogs and a series that I called Days of Happiness, which I will be starting up again soon. Up until recently, I was only recording on my phone camera since that was all I had. I started up college classes about six months ago and was required to get a decent webcam for my tests since all of my schooling is online, so I am now able to use that and a mic that my best friend gave me to record. I can record better quality videos now, which excites me. I also found some decent editing apps for my laptop, but most have the watermark on them that I can't afford to get rid of yet, but you make do with what you can when you don't have that many subscribers to impress. I used to record every chance I got, but I found recently that I was struggling pretty heavily with my mental health and trying to find the motivation to record. I was in a mentally abusive relationship for the last two years and I was actually engaged to him for four months. The entire time that we were together, I was pretty well cut off from all of my friends and I was actually afraid to do some of the things I enjoyed doing such as recording videos for YouTube. I've been out of that relationship for a little bit now and I'm slowly finding my motivation to start back up with the things I love. It has taken a lot out of me to get back to how I used to be pre-mental abuse. I have ideas for a couple videos I want to make, but ultimately I'm unsure of what to do with my channel. I have thought about doing gaming videos or just remaining with vlogs, but I guess that's the beauty of having such a small channel. It's easier to experiment around with the type and style of video I want to do when there's less of a risk of losing my fan base. The next two videos I want to create talk about my mental health along with the abusive relationship I was in and the story about my r*pe. Yes, sensitive content. I'm scared to share my story, but I feel like it's time to let it out and let it go. It has been a scary journey for me and I know that others have gone through worse, including my sister, but I feel like it is important that people see that they can tell their stories and there are people out there who will listen. I want to share my story with the world, even though it is one of the most terrifying things for me to do. I know exactly what points I want to make in the videos, but it is the hardest thing I've ever had to do, so I haven't even began to record them yet. I am excited to begin recording and uploading videos again, though. I do hope to one day have a larger fan base, but I don't mind only sharing my story with the thirty people that have stuck by me thus far. Even without posting for two, almost three years now, my subscriber count hasn't really dropped very much, and I'm glad to know that I've got loyal subscribers with this small of a channel.
By Brilainey Creates4 years ago in Journal
My Story Part 1
There are plenty of different career paths that you could follow. Adults start asking their children pretty young what they want to be when they grow up. What did you say when asked that? Many kids will say ‘princess’, ‘famous’, ‘a singer’, or any list of careers they know. I said that I wanted to be a teacher the first time I was ever asked this question. Since then, my answer had changed to wanting to be a famous singer or dancer as well as wanting to be a lawyer, police officer, and marine biologist. The want to be a teacher has always stuck with me, though.
By Brilainey Creates4 years ago in Motivation
The Top 10 Most Subscribed to YouTubers
YouTube has become a pretty popular outlet for people to share their creativity and entertain a fan base. Many people want to become a YouTuber to express their creativity or to get paid. Though the latter is less likely to happen when that is why someone begins their own channel, it’s not impossible. If you’re wanting to earn more subscribers, one of the best ways is to look at the channels that already have many subscribers and see what they do that you can incorporate into your own channel. Obviously don’t copy other channels, but take ideas from many sources and make them your own. Today I’d like to talk about ten of the most subscribed channels on YouTube.
By Brilainey Creates4 years ago in Journal
