My Existence

“My Existence”

A product of spite,

Uncensored relations,

Bounded emotions,

Anxiety out of control,

Unfathomable desperation,

Speechless endeavors,

Silenced moments,

Depression is ruler,

Time has ceased…If but for one glimpse of bliss,

Bliss like no other…Freedom,

Vanished all over again in the blink of an eye,

Sanity is broken,

A brewing storm,

Beginning to transform,

No more longing,

Peace forever shattered,

Destroyed spirit….dissipated refrain,

The peace has vanished, as have I,

The darkness consumes,

Growing blacker and colder,

Fear is a faint memory,

Weariness has ceased,

A ravaging serenity overcomes,

I have moved on, no longer here,

I have not an ounce of will left within,

Afraid of the loss of control and will,

I continue to sink deeper into the darkness,

I’m giving up…..I’m shutting down

My life presents in spurts; as I feel myself drown….

TAHNEE COLE © 1997