The process

Clear the space.

Move all things out of the way that may be a distraction. Things are like thoughts - they take your mind away from what should be focused on. For some an empty space might not be available. For some there may be so much clutter in the area and in the mind that finding the clearance may be close to impossible. We move on. We do our best. We focus.

So I begin. I begin my process.

Breathe.

Breathe again.

And again.

Inhale the good, exhale the unnecessary.

But what is unnecessary. These are my thoughts. What do others do? How do they do it? How does one clear the mind and focus on one thing. I multitask. I must learn my process. I must learn how to empty my mind.

I start again.

Breathe.

Breathe again.

Focus on the exhale.

Focus on the breath.

Focus on the body.

There is a technique to breathing. What is the method again? I know I was told how to do it. I will just do what feels best. I can learn that part later, right?

Breathing….

But wait.

Do you sage the area first? When do I set my intentions? What if I did it wrong? Did I just ruin my ritual? Where are my crystals? Wait, are these the right ones for what I need? Should i start over?

Exhale.

The thoughts come rushing in. Concentrate. Block the thoughts that are not needed right now. I’ll deal with those thoughts later. Uh oh. What was the intention again?

Breathe.

Breathe again.

Should I sage myself? Maybe I am the one carrying the negative energy. Maybe it is my energy that is inhibiting my process.

Now I remember.

I state the intention out-loud.

Repeat.

Breathe.

Hold the crystals and concentrate. Concentrate. Repeat intentions silently.

Exhale.

Now wait.

Thoughts jump in again. Why can i not clear my mind?

Perhaps I should journal. Writing things down is always helpful. To write is to release. I will do that. Let me sage again. I light the sage. I wave it in the air. I sage myself. I sage my journal. I state my intentions as they come to mind. For once my mind is clear and I have an idea of my mission. I grab the crystal that I am drawn to. It feels good to hold this one in my hand.

I focus on my vibration.

I breathe.

I exhale.

I start to write. I let the pen guide me. It’s amazing what comes out of my mind and onto the paper. Thought after thought, word after word. My writing is starting to become messy. I don’t seem to care. No one will be reading this. Unless, of course, I decided to share. But who would want to read my thoughts. They are random at best. People would think i was crazy. Well, crazier then I already might be thought to be. I continue.

Thoughts,

words,

more thoughts,

more words.

They keep coming. Some making sense and some not. I’m okay with it. This is what feels good. I am not doubting my process. This is my process. I’m emptying my mind into the abyss. I’ve cleared space in my mind. The words continue.

Stream of consciousness.

I keep writing. I feel like i cannot stop.

But then, my mind is empty. I dumped all the thoughts, good and bad onto the paper. They will stay there until I decide what is next.

Next?

Now what? My mind is empty.

I’ve completed my process. I have done what needed to be done. This is my process.

What is your ritual?