The peace in letting go..

Few days back, I really wanted to purchase a specific course of law of attraction but unfortunately I'm not earning at this point of time so I had to ask for money from my close ones. They refused to pay me for their obvious reasons as spending money on these things is wastage of money. Well, I was really hurt after their refusal. I was really feeling helpless and was continuously thinking if I was earning then I won't be having a need to ask. It's not that I'm not trying to earn or I'm voluntarily sitting at home. I am looking for job and trying many other things to for being financially independent but maybe the timing is not right and god wants me to learn something from my this phase of life. Anyhow, when my close ones refused I was not able to control my emotions and literally cried. It may sound foolish but yeah I cried like a little baby over the fact not receiving money , but the actual reason was my feelings behind. I was not able to digest that I'm not getting what I want as it really never ever happened in my life. Being financially independent and loving daughter, wife, daughter in law I always have had at my plate whatever I needed. I never had scarcity type of feeling relating to the money. Well, after that incident various thoughts kept over hovering my mind like a ghost and I started feeling restless. I became more desperate, questioned god, cried even sitting in my temple saying Why god? Why me? Why you are not giving me job? I complained a lot and carried my whole day with this feeling till I paused and questioned myself ...I'm practicing law of attraction, I want to be part of its journey at more deeper level but I'm investing my all energy, focus, attention to negative thoughts and complaining. This one pause made a drastic shift in my mindset. I chose peace over mental chaos, surrendered to god and made peace by affirming maybe universe, god is trying to teach me some lessons through this phase of life. I understood by believing whatever all is happening now there is a reason for that. I may not see the reason now but tomorrow when I will look back I will surely find the one and will be thanking god that it unfolded the way as you wanted. It's we humans who started feeling bad immediately whenever something is not going according to our wish. However, the one who is above all has different kind of plans for us which we can't think of with our limited thoughts. For example, I am asking for a job today but what if god wants me to walk on the path of business and preparing road for me to walk upon that way. I don't know , it could be also one possibility. As we never know what good things our future holds for us. So, enjoy your time and be happy, stop complaining. Have faith on Divine power as everything will be provided to you when you're ready and on divine timings. Express gratitude to what you have as the kind of life you are living today is the dream of many. Life is too short to worry for little things. If its not your day today then maybe tomorrow could be yours. Keep walking, you will be guided throughout your journey with his divine light. We are kids of that supreme one, he will not let anything bad happen with his kids. Just we need to have trust on his timings then life would be beautiful to live. I learned this and got mental peace by letting go and surrendering to his willpower. Even a feather on this earth moves when he wants, so how we humans can have full control on everything. Let your life's remote control be in his hands if mental peace is to be sustained. Believe me, there is nothing good as Peace of mind.