healing
How to heal fully and properly.
To Me With Love...
Letter of forgiveness Over the years, I have learned the importance of forgiveness. I think the biggest thing about forgiveness is that from what I hear it is not for the people who hurt me but for me. Many people have their own theory on why that is but I guess for me it is because of all the problems it can cause to hold a grudge. The crazy part about forgiveness is that even though there is an object of it you’re the only one who can feel those horrible feelings you’re carrying. So, this letter is to help you to forgive.
By Riva N. Jackson6 years ago in Motivation
The Accident
The story I am going to share with you definitely changed my perspective towards the importance of life and has taught me why we should value things we have. I am not a good writer and this is my first story. I think this message is really something I want to get across people.
By Bawa6 years ago in Motivation
Being the good one
I have always aspired to be The Good One. Since when I was little. I still vividly remember the day when my mother kissed me and hugged me for the very last time and told me with a proud tone in her voice I would have never hear again I have been ‘Good’.I still remember up to this day how happy that made me feel, what an incredible and sweet energy embraced me that afternoon. I guess losing that sort of acceptance and recognition from my mum’s side not long after made me an angry,isolated,teenager and the insecure and clingy adult that I happen to have become now. I now more than ever strive for people’s approval and support. I just realised it at 32 yearsold. During the past 7 years I moved out of parents house, move country and attempted to be on my own two feet. I sometimes failed and collapsed but here I am. And just at this stage I have only realised how incredibly stupid and vulnerable I must appear to the eye of others who know me.First I thought only through studying hard and showing outstanding results in college and at Uni I could receive love and appreciation, than it was the job or career path that eventually no members of my family ever truly approved. And than it was the love quest, that insufferable mystic desire of finding the one who could complete me, cherish me, protect me. Instead I ended up ‘playing’ the part of the protector in all my recent relationships that inevitably ended up with me getting exhausted and running away with a broken heart.I embarked in a few relationships that emotionally destroyed me and dismantled me from within without realising I totally lost myself in the attempt to play the same old character.Why is that ? I have asked myself multiple times. Why nobody can see how many efforts I am putting to show them how much I love and adore them? And why all the people I happen to know who have the same features as me are struggling exactly the same? It seems to me that there are two very distinct types of people in this world: the vigorous fuckers, and the ones who get fucked. Also paraphrasing winners/ losers. I always see myself like the latter but what if I am indeed truly a winner? I think I had an epiphany the other day when a girlfriend told me ‘think about how miserable you could be know if you were still with him’. And suddenly I felt sorry for that person but not for myself actually I felt smart and considerate for once in my life. What I mean by this is that there should always be a way for us to see a positive side of things, people, situations. For the first time in my life I do not want to think at myself like a loser but like a truly loving and caring person that deserves and will find happiness and love.Failing at something in life does not mean you are failing in life entirely. At 32 I have started to accept myself as I am, maybe insecure, clingy, dreamy but still hopeful.
By Anouk B6 years ago in Motivation
Quarantine Blues
As someone with a compromised immune system, and someone who is having surgery within the next few days, quarantine has not ended for me despite the loosening of regulations here in Colorado. My golden birthday is in two weeks - I will be turning 26 on the 26th - and I am dreaming of what my perfect day might have been had we not been in a pandemic. This time last year I was suicidal and ended up being hospitalized over the past year for Major Depressive Disorder, Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder, Anxiety, Bulimia, Fibromyalgia, and PTSD, so making it to my 26th birthday is a huge milestone for me. While I am dreaming about the day I might have had before our current pandemic I am just happy to be alive and to have made it to another birthday. It is the simple pleasures I have learned to appreciate, and it is those small acts that I miss the most.
By Ashley Nestler, MSW6 years ago in Motivation
How to Forgive Someone Who Deeply Hurt You
I’m at a point in my life where I deeply value peace. At a different point, I was stuck in the mental/ emotional loop of heartbreak— far from a peaceful state of being. My days were literally mentally consumed with extremely unhealthy and unproductive thoughts stemming from profound betrayal. It wasn’t just my mind that felt the pain— my emotions (of course), but my body… my body reacted to the heartbreak in sheer malfunction. I could barely stomach anything due to constant nausea caused by orchestrated worst-case scenarios, confusion, looping memories and the “what-if”/ “if only” dialogue. I lost 12 pounds and not one pound did I feel proud of losing. At my lowest, I weighed 92 pounds. On many days, it felt as if I was barely surviving. I was sick— deeply heartsick. I couldn’t even think about the word forgiveness when I was going through this.
By Stephanie Daily6 years ago in Motivation
Be still my heart
Hello, you do not know me and I perceive you but I do not know you. Or at least that's how you may see it. Let me explain, my mind, my heart is very complex. There are times where I am certain of something, then one small question enters my head. That single question it does not matter what it is but it throws me off into a mental tangent. Such is my life, such is how my mind works, furthermore it has been this way for as long as I can remember. I don't often write about myself however I digress this is to show you a look into my mind with the hope of it helping you in some way.
By Jillian A. Weiss6 years ago in Motivation
Nourished within the river of sand below me.
Do you notice the rippling currents of the sand? How every fold is so perfectly created by the sea. A reflection of the mind, waiting for the moon to welcome the tide back up the shore, collecting footprints of lovers and strangers. How the sea so delicately forms patterns for ones mind to get lost within.
By Esme Rose 6 years ago in Motivation
