healing
How to heal fully and properly.
The Start of Something New
These past few years had taught me more than something.I have been struggling with my mental health for so many years. I took more pills than i could swallows, i cut deeper everyday wishing that it will end the pain. I always have struggles, especially a battle with myself. There are days i felt 101% and there are days that i felt 20%. Most of the days i felt nothing. It was really hard for me to keep going. There are so many things that keep on happening in my life. I've been surrounded by snakes, not the animal but the human-kind-of-snakes, and I almost lost my dad. I did lose my family for quite sometime and trust me, it was the lowest point of my life. I did everything i could to save them. It is true what they said, the harder you hold the rope, the deeper the wound. I decided to take one step back and let the universe do its job. Everyday i'll remind myself that it is okay to be not okay. One day i woke up feeling great and other day, i don't even want to move out of my bed. Worst part is, I have been betrayed by someone who i never thought would betrayed me and i have been hurt by someone who i never thought would hurt me. Never thought I am a strong person until being strong is the only choice i had. The moment i knew he was with another person, i know it will be the end for us and within a week, i lost him and my dearest aunt. She passed away only few days after we fought. I started to lose myself, i mean more to distance myself. At the moment i felt numb. Both of them meant so much to me and losing them, it makes me almost giving up but little did i know Allah have a better plan for me.
By mymindspeaks5 years ago in Motivation
Awareness to Forgiveness
I use to live my life looking for acceptance in others. I would walk the path of least resistance not for myself, but just to make others feel more comfortable around me. I would seek affection from others because I had none growing up in my single mother household. Therefore, after a while, I became rebellious towards anyone and anything that I thought was more about controlling me, rather than holding me and uplifting me.
By Devina 5 years ago in Motivation
"I AM"
Last week I had a miniature breakdown of all that was past, all that was, and all that I intended to come. There are many things that I find home with, not physically but spiritually. The caress and path of the paintbrush, the locking down of my thoughts and words in ink, and the deep breaths taken whilst on the bank or beach of any body of water. Among those things that I let slip away was my writing.
By Kaia 5 years ago in Motivation
Forgive Them And Forgive Yourself For Allowing Them To Hurt You
When someone treats you badly and unfairly, when someone breaks your heart and wounds your soul, when someone shatters your dreams and hopes of a better tomorrow… you must know how to deal with that amount of pain so that its effects won’t be detrimental for your wellbeing.
By The Elite5 years ago in Motivation
SHHHH.....
There aren't a ton of things that give me peace in this world. The ocean, yes indeed, the ocean. I used to go down the shore when I lived in New Jersey, not during tourist season but in the fall or winter. I would bring my journal and just write to the music of the waves. I let my long, thick hair loose for the wind to take. The feeling of having my hair blowing this way and that was like magic. I couldn't control how it blew. I didn't care about the tangled mess that would come, I just let the wind weave in and out, back and forth while I wrote my deepest secrets to myself. This was wind making love to me in that special way that only it could. I sure do miss that.
By Teresa Wegrzyn5 years ago in Motivation
Islands and Drawbridges
Let’s be honest: this pandemic has f*cked with us emotionally, physically, and spiritually. We’ve had to learn a new normal, and learn that some aspects of our old normal just were not working. We’re living through a public health crisis while also living through a social justice movement (remember that Black Lives Matter, and to ARREST THE COPS THAT MURDERED BREONNA TAYLOR). Through this time, I’ve also started attended my masters program while working two jobs, moving in with my partner, and just trying to survive. I’ve been reflecting on my life a lot lately with everything going on, and I’ve been trying to build myself up lately – emotionally, physically, and spiritually. A few things that I’ve started to do is listen to podcasts and reading.
By Levi Sanders5 years ago in Motivation
Trusting Others in Relationships
Trusting others is really a process of getting to know and trust oneself. When we begin to listen to our inner gut instincts and follow the directions that our senses give us, then we can begin to trust our own emotional selves rather than having to put trust anywhere else. Many people will write about how to build trust with others in relationships, but few write about the process of building a personal relationship with oneself in order to hold the capacity for trusting others. Many discuss this topic as though we want to be able to trust someone else, but the foundational building blocks come from first empowering an individual to trust oneself to make good decisions.
By Stacy Davenport5 years ago in Motivation
The Art of Security
It starts with you. That may sound very clique, especially when speaking on the topic of security within one's self. Honestly, however, there is no other real sense of security in the world. Now, this is coming from the girl that tried everything. From money to internet clout, I used every avenue to try and fill the void I had. At the time, what I didn’t understand was that there were things from long ago that created that void, and until I addressed those things I would never find the new things that could truly fill the void. I feel a few things played a part in this, but it all boiled down to a lack mentality that I didn’t realize I was feeding. By "lack mentality" I mean the mindset that led me to believe I solely was not enough. Comparing myself to others or listening to what others think of me and taking that as bible were only adding fuel to the fire I felt was burning away all the beautiful parts of me. Giving people the role of God in my life was almost the death of me. Then I realized (slowly but surely) that no one knows me better than I do. I spend every second of every day with myself, and no one else on this earth can say they have that much experience with me. The moment you realize you are all you need for you, you will see the things in your life shift for the better.
By Kyntaurii LaKyn5 years ago in Motivation
The Magic of Dirt
Texas Smells Like Summer Camp Since living in Elgin, a town 40 miles east of Austin, Jim and I have been tending to a little garden and I am in love. The plot lies at the front of the house, adjacent to the road and shaded by a line of bushy trees. The entrance to the garden is through an iron-wrought fence that’s rusted quite prettily and is draped in grape ivy from one robust vine. The bunches of grapes are numerous. They feel velvety and cool to the touch and hang heavy with a beautiful weight to them.
By Annette Kim5 years ago in Motivation
In the Eyes of a Little Girl
She almost wished that she could think the same way that the rest of the world seemed to, then everything happening wouldn't be so difficult for her to process. She couldn't though, something inside her prevented her from being able to justify what was happening. She couldn't just give up what she knew was right and follow them, because she truly cared about other people. Surely somebody, anybody else had to see it was wrong! She couldn't understand the 'why' to it and that's what bothered her the most. She longed for the time when everything was peaceful and nobody cared about everyone else's ideas or passions. She didn't know what happened to cause it, but everything had changed now. People were now drilling everybody else because thoughts and ideas were no longer private, no longer a privilege. Anything you believed in or stood for was wrong, there were none who were innocent. Why was everybody prying, accusing, and interrogating until you said anything that they could use to make you look like you were a worthless person. Nobody was allowed to think anymore. Everything you thought or said was used to try and destroy you. Everybody's deep, dark secrets exposed. To be an introvert was a sin~ you were hated for speaking, or trying to speak,and hated even more if you remained silent...everything about you was not only judged, it was wrong. What was happening?
By _5 years ago in Motivation
