Hopeful

You came into my life when I was finding myself. And you showed me things I've never imagined I would see in life. You made me believe in love and you always protected me by all means. I was so in love and so hopeful that I was blinded to a lot of things that would hurt me in the long run. I was hopeful that you were going to always be the same person I feel in love with, but it turned out you would be the one to break my heart and take all my hopes.

Over the years I seen a change in you that I was not familiar with and it was unexplainable. You started to treat me like I didn’t even matter to you, like you didn’t love me anymore. I seen you have a twinkle in you eyes when you would look at me, I would see the glow in your face when you would speak to me. Now it’s like a dead look it’s a crooked smile and a bother mood. I have never over stepped my boundaries nor disrespected the man that you were, but once I began to question the person you have become things became different in a way I didn’t see coming. I can be honest when I say I lost myself in you it’s was like you molded me to the the person you wanted me to be. And you loved that you kept me in the dark about the real you and you always made sure I stayed away.

Once I began to find a little me you were worried then I began to explore more things in life and you were upset. Once I found myself you were beyond mad and tried everything in your power to Control and manipulate me. You would tell me anything just so I would not see the truth about the real man I was so hopeful for once I opened my eyes and ears I told myself “I PUT YOU FIRST AND I LOVE YOU FIRST”! I have to put myself back together and heal my broken heart and find what’s best for me find a person who will genuinely love me for me and not try to change me or fix me. Falling in love at a young age can be a good thing and a bad thing but it’s about who you fall in love with nevertheless it’s about understanding what comes with it. I don’t need a person to make me whole I understand I am all I need to make me happy and I’m hopeful for real love in the future. It took me a while to realize who and what I am, I am a very strong Queen and just had to fix my crown because it was tilted for some time.

I now walk around with my head held high and a smile on my face and confidence in my steps and pride in myself and that hopefulness has turned into DREAMS AND GOALS AND DETERMINATION AND MOTIVATION! I no longer have to look for validation or acceptance in a person. Being hopeful can only last for so long before you run out of hopes it becomes more like broken promises and non realistic goals but it give you the fuel to keep pushing and to always be strong no matter what obstacles you may have. I was hopeful about you but now I’m grateful that I seen the real you when I did because now I have reclaim my throne being the Queen that I am thank you.