Found my peace

I wake up again and my head still aches from the night before. My body is just as tired. ’It's a new day’, my neighbour yells to the whole neighbour. She was so excited. I yearned to have the joy and happiness she felt. I suddenly got out of my bed and looked across the window to see all the empty streets. Everywhere was filled with silence apart from my head. I was never peaceful and always had thoughts rooming around in my head. I went and showered and thought a cool shower could wash away the sadness but it only made it worse. I started crying in the shower and my tears washed my whole body. My tears could have filled a whole ocean and more, they felt so deep and never ending. Suddenly I stopped crying and started talking to the inner voice in me. She lived in my mind and knew all my fears and tears. I couldn't even hide my secrets from her. I talked to her until I realized it was toxic for me to be around her because she always made me hate myself. As I got dressed, she spoke again and mentioned how that cloth wouldn’t look good on me and when I ate, she controlled how much I ate.

After eating, I go by my daily routine. I mopped the house and I listened to music in my headsets. The headsets took me somewhere else. Whenever I put them on, they would make me travel to another place which was happier and more peaceful. They took me to a place where I would walk around a field with beautiful dandelion flowers which overwhelmed me with happiness and joy. Research states that the ,'Bright, yellow color of a Dandelion flower is a perfect symbol of happiness and joy' and it was no doubt that I felt all such feelings of peace and for those few seconds, I observed how calm and free I truly was. I would run as I grabbed the flowers with their thorns which caused me barely the pain to what I was used to dealing with inside, I had worn a beautiful silky red dress and short boots as I ran around the countryside. It was so beautiful and I cried tears of joy as I imagined all that. I wanted to be just as happy and the headsets took me there. They really did make me feel as if I was somewhere else, a place I could visit anytime for free and be filled with so much joy. The music was one of the small seconds of my life where I truly smiled and meant it with all my heart. I wanted more of what I dreamt of those seconds and so I was going to make my dream a reality, I was no longer going to allow the voices in my mind to conquer me and to cause me pain and control my life. I was done listening to all the echoes in my head, they didn't exist. I then wore my red silk dress and boots and went back to my happy place. I knew where to find it and I was now on the journey with my bike running back to what made me happy. I was going to make my dream my reality. I could feel the place calling out to me. I was finally going to chase for the light, I had been in darkness way too long.

BY- SALIEM SEMERE