Finding My Voice

There is so much for me to cover within this story, but I will keep it short and simple. I was always one to overexert myself for others' acceptance, never had my own identity or voice, always remained quiet, and allowed people to take my shine time after time. I couldn’t find it in me to find myself, nor could I find my passion. Losing my childlike senses (imagination and dreams) and dealing with day-to-day life traumas caused me to become more numb than our planet already conditions us to be.

I hated being placed in front of cameras, I hated the spotlight, and I hated revealing any part of me that I felt was considered vulnerable. My negative and close-minded outlook on life left me with a reality that had no purpose, no joy, no passion, and no excitement. It took losing myself, my job, my close friends, and my pride. Hitting rock bottom and being stuck with my own repetitive negative thought patterns that I, at the time, thought were normal. Living in my anxiety nonstop and allowing fear to hold me back from opportunities that were once in a lifetime. I spent months and months jobless, tired of the routine of life, the system, the zombie pattern that once again we are all at some point conditioned to think is normal.

One day, I had enough. I couldn’t take the idea that my life would be sitting in my room all day, closing myself off from the world and driving myself nuts from the spiraling self-doubt. I had to admit to myself that there were things within that I needed to change. I had to stop believing the horrible things I thought about myself and face the fact that settling for such a miserable pattern wasn’t going to be my life story, and I wasn’t going to be a victim. I began listening to daily affirmations every morning, and I became more spiritual and got more in touch with the relationship between my mind, body, and soul. Realizing that it was time to figure out my purpose—there is always a purpose for everyone’s life—I taped sticky notes to my wall with reminders to “step out of my comfort zone,” “listen to my body,” etc., as well as uplifting compliments to train my mind to see the beauty in myself that I've always neglected and denied. I knew it was time for a change so I took the first step and picked up a camera and began vlogging on YouTube. I started sketching designs and I started forcing myself in front of cameras. I began speaking to strangers and building my charisma, and anytime I felt fear or anxiety, I transformed it into drive to overcome and become a better me. I’ve since improved, openly expressing myself, and I've discovered my true calling is to let people know that their voices matter, that their soul will guide them to their destiny EVERY SINGLE TIME.

I’m here to tell people that they are not alone and no dream is impossible. That all we really need is love and faith, because these are the two things that will pick you up when you’re down and out. I want everyone to know that I’m here to help break them out of the shell that’s holding them back. When you learn to let go, there is so much abundance waiting on the other side. It will be painful, but in life, there is always a balance. We take the beauty with the pain and we learn and grow from these elements. I’m here to inspire and help people believe that nothing is impossible if you just stay persistent. Keep dreaming! ❣️

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