Can I Use What’s In My Brain As HRT?

Thanks to poverty, I had an impatient life, so I missed puberty. I thought life saved me, because I witnessed the mental, emotional, and psychological damage it does to many teens. I couldn’t bypass Menopause. I am feeling everything. I think puberty and Menopause are ganging up on me. Every day, I am in pain. I feel everything ten times more.

Research on HRT isn’t encouraging. I never had mood swings before Menopause. My emotions don’t make decisions for me. Now, thanks to Menopause, I am battling with my feelings daily. I have allowed it to make a few decisions for me, and it has cost me a lot.

I am a fast learner and usually don’t repeat silly mistakes, but not with menopause. It seems to be taking control away from me. Yes, I know my body has stopped producing estrogen. So, hell is here.

I feel like Menopause is turning me into Satan. I don’t like Satan and refuse to be him. I don’t want to take HRT or anything else to alleviate my symptoms. I wish to do it naturally.

Is there a natural and healthier way to transition through Menopause safely without science and its drugs?

The side effects are what worries me.

My brain is my central processing unit, CPU, and it has stored a vast amount of information that spans more than fifty years. My long-term memory is fine. It’s the short-term one that’s messing up my life.

The best part is that what happens today is stored in the long-term library, adding more information for me to use. But I have days when I am too weak, tired, and fatigued to move. I have days when my entire body, mind, and soul shut down thanks to the excruciating pain raging from my whole left side. I lack motivation and must constantly battle against myself and my emotions.

I demand from life, “What if I use my past life and good decisions stored in my memory and brain to live my life now with Menopause? Could I draw on my past for the knowledge, wisdom, experience, strength, and know-how to make decisions under the Menopause rule? Decisions that menopause and my emotions interfere with creating hell for me.

With menopause, it’s like I no longer have common sense or know the difference between right and wrong. I don’t like that feeling or thinking. I refuse to be an over-fifty-year-old child. I didn’t get the opportunity to be a child, but if I must, and I can apply the wisdom, knowledge, and common sense of the past, along with everything I have learned, known, and remembered, I’m ready. I don’t think life will accommodate that. Not in this body, anyway. Lol

Life didn’t give me a choice to be weak as a child. Now, as an aging adult, Menopause is taking that away from me.

After research, I must find a way to live and enjoy whatever time I have left on earth with happiness and love. Yes, Menopause is making me feel as if my life makes no sense. Why must I continue living if all I am facing daily is hell?

How long does menopause last?

Google says, “Menopause usually lasts about seven years, though it can range from two to fourteen years.”

Is this for real? I can’t live like this for seven years, more or less fourteen.

#Iintend2survive, so I will go with what’s in my brain from my past. Yes, I go back for strength. Pain is there, but not the ones that can harm me.

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