My Dearest Amelia

The days grow longer with each passing moment that I'm apart from you, My Love. The only moment of happiness I have during this war is the memory of your beautiful face... the touch of your soft lips against mine. This horrendous war leaves me struggling to feel anything but numb most days, because if I were to allow myself to feel... anything... I fear that I would go insane. We fight against our own brothers, uncles, even fathers... all because so many cannot see equality as a human right that all deserve. Empathy is killing me slowly the longer this war rages on... I feel that I will never be able to close my eyes without seeing... all the bodies of the fallen around me.

I took the life of a young man today... he could not have been older than 19. I despise this war with every breath I take. They say we are winning but is there truly a winner in war? When so many lives are taken without hesitation? I am lost in grief day after day... the nightmares haunt me constantly, even in the brief moments of sleep that I am allowed. I pray every day for this dreadful battle to be done and over with so that I can return to you, My Love. You are the only light in this constant darkness surrounding me every second. I dream for the moment I can wrap my arms around you once more and feel the beating of your heart against my chest as I embrace you.

My beautiful Amelia, you are the only reason that I continue to fight in this ghastly war. My life would have no purpose if you were not there at home waiting for me. My hope is that I shall survive this nightmare long enough to at least see your amazing smile once more, My Love. You are my light through these harrowing shadows that close in around me. When I feel close to losing my mind, it is you, My Amelia, that pulls me back from the depths of despair. You give me the ability to keep fighting, even though part of me feels as though this is a war that no one shall truly win. Knowing that I have you to return home to is what keeps me from allowing myself to be taken down just to be done with this hell.

My hands long to feel your long, black locks of silken hair as my fingers run through it. My arms long to be wrapped around you tightly to ensure that you are safe and protected. My eyes long to look upon your brown eyes and flawless ivory skin. My lips long to feel your tender kiss. You are my salvation, My Love. I pray that this war does not take me because I could not go peacefully into the ever after without having gazed upon your beauty once more. The memories I have do not do you justice, and this war has made everything... hazy. Sometimes I wake up and think that I see you standing in front of me, but then I hear the sounds of battle raging and the image of you fades away from my sight.

I cannot wait for the moment my arms are no longer empty, and my hands are no longer holding weapons of death. The day that they are all wrapped around you once more, my Amelia. That is the day that my soul will be complete once again. My heart will be full of love and happiness. This darkness will be a distant memory that can no longer haunt me because I will be with you. I dream of us having many children together, I cannot wait to become a father and see you as a mother. I pray that they never have to endure the pain of another war like this. That is why I continue to fight, because I know that I must provide a better world for our future children... and for you, My Love.

Please continue to be strong, My Dear. For me. I know it is difficult without me there to provide for you and protect you. I do not know what I would do if anything ever were to happen to you, Amelia, please be careful and I promise this to you, once I return home, we will never be apart for long again. You are the light of my soul and the peace that calms the fire raging within me. You give me the ability to continue breathing when the weight of this war begins to suffocate me. You are my salvation, my dearest Amelia. I would give up my very life to protect you and keep you from harm, I swear this to you. My life is yours, My Love.

I fight this war for you, Amelia. I fight for what is right... just as I promised you I would do on the day I left. I promised you that I would return to you as soon as we won the war and I have no intention of breaking that promise to you, My Dear. I hope this letter, and my others, continue to find you so that you know I am still alive and fighting. I have no way to know if any word is getting to anyone outside of this blasted battlefield. I pray that this war will come to an end soon because every day it continues to wage on becomes more unbearable and I become more numb. I pray that you remember how much I love you, Amelia. You are my everlasting peace and happiness. Forever, I will be devoted to you and only you, My Love.

And... if God shall call me home before I can return to you in this mortal life, Amelia, I pray that you will know my last thought will be of you... my last breath will be laced with your name... and I will await you in the afterlife, My Love. I love you... Amelia... Forever...

Charles

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