A Confessional

Introduction

I needed to start somewhere, so it's here. I always want my writing to be interesting, uplifting and to leave people in a good frame of mind.

To that end, I have included "You Spin Me Round (Like a Record)" by Dead or Alive. Pete Burns used to sell me discs at Probe Records in Liverpool in the early eighties. Putting that record on has immediately improved my mood, and this means that this article should leave you feeling better than when you came in.

What Does That Mean?

This is about my work on Vocal and in the Vocal Facebook Groups, not about my external life which is fine.

I want to write about the wrongs done, about the bad things, to complain, but I know that first of all it wouldn't fit with my writing style and if I did I would get pilloried.

This means I have to go through some bad times with no support, knowing that it is on me to bring me through. At the same time, I have to be there for others because they are having a hard time, to be the one who is there for them, so I know I have to really look after myself.

There are times when I feel I am about to fall off the edge or hit a brick wall, and the only person there for me is me.

I keep thinking I am running out of interesting things to say but then I come up with a piece like this. So as usual I find some way to express myself.

I will find my way through this feeling, and I have realised that part of the reason that I can write so much is due to having a lot of the manic and a little of the depressive and I must be in the latter state now, but I can't ask anyone to hold my hand and by the time this is published I will be fine and won't need any help at all.

I suppose writing and creating is a form of therapy, and if one person takes something for what I have to say then I have succeeded. I know Vocak prefers sad pieces, especially poetry, but that is not my forté at all, so don't come to me to bring you down, but do come to me if you need a hug or encouragement, and there are a lot of reasons to feel good if we open ourselves up to them.

Although a lot of time I am solitary in what I do, I do love contact with others and conversations with friends really buoys me and raises my spirits. If you look at my poetry most of it is positive and uplifting, you will have your work cut out to find the dark stuff although you could just buy my book inspired by Dharrsheena

Dharsheena is an amazingly supportive friend and one of my "Creationati" who are there for me and you can check out at the end of this piece.

The main thing is to concentrate on things that make you feel wanted and valued, like the comments I get from my friends and audience and ignore things that bring you down, and you know what causes me a lot of angst, but I said at the beginning that by the end of this that I would be feeling much better and I am in a really good place with lots of ideas for things to write.

Conclusion.

Yes I am feeling in a manic state and that means that I have lots of ideas going forward, but I do know when to slow down and recharge.

Thank you so much for reading this latest confessional of mine.