What’s wrong with me. Content Warning.
I was only 8 when the mood swings began, looking back, that was just the beginning. Doctors put it down to early on set puberty. But was it the warning signs of something more sinister. Then when my periods came, at the age of 11 my moods accelerated, swinging this way and that way every single day and week till the week of my period where my mood suddenly calmed. I’d still have the occasional moods swing, but nowhere near as bad as when I was off my period. Then I turned 16, and the mood swings took a sinister turn, I took my first overdose. I felt so very low and depressed that I couldn’t see a way out of my ever desperate situation, so I tried to escape via an OD. I had already been self harming for a year at this point, just scratches so nobody put two and two together, they were all getting five. Till I got myself to the hospital and admitted I needed help. I was given the option of taking fluoxetine or a 3 day stay in the hospitals mental health ward. Well my parents didn’t know what id done and were expecting me home that night, so I chose the pills. Worst mistake ever.
