depression
It is not just a matter of feeling sad; discover an honest view of the mental, emotional and physical toll of clinical depression.
What Pain Really Does to Us
Pain is a universal experience. We all go through it in one form or another. Whether it's emotional heartbreak, physical injury, or the quiet ache of loneliness, pain is something none of us can escape. But here's the twist — pain isn't always the enemy. In fact, in many ways, it's our greatest teacher.
By F. M. Rayaan7 months ago in Psyche
Fever Dream
One night some time ago, I couldn't sleep. It felt very dull and I felt empty inside, knowing I had done nothing productive for the day. I kept twisting and turning in bed until I found the energy to get out of bed and do something productive. As I walk to the kitchen, wanting to grab a glass of water, I noticed that there was something off; everything was out of place. My brain stopped working for a moment, trying to analyze what had possibly happened, as I knew that I am a very orderly person. Then, I hear some sounds above my head. I knew that couldn't be, since I live in a house with a steep roof. I decide to exit the house to figure out what was going on, and as I went out, I didn't see anything out of the ordinary on the roof. I felt paranoid and was questioning whether im hallucinating or just overthinking, I have been ruminating about all the traumatic things in my childhood recently, could it be that? Could Sigmund Freud have been right about repression, how we try to hide our pain until we cannot have the power to do so anymore? Is this me going through cognitive dissonance, trying to match my attitudes with my behavior in order to seem normal, when nothing was normal about me? What is it, that's making me feel so terrible about myself that sleep has not been able to take me away of this Earth we call home for just some hours. As dusk was growing close, I decided not to return to bed and just sat down, with my glass of water, and kept on thinking about my issues until I had no power to do so anymore. Some form of energy took over me, some sort of intrinsic motivation, or even attempting to reduce that drive of being fulfilled as mentioned in the drive reduction theory telling me to go out and just run. It was 4 AM but nontheless running seemed like the only right option. I left my house and ran, and ran, and ran even more until my feet were practically a group of blisters. The thing is, I don't know where I am, I'm lost yet there is no reason to be, just retracing the steps of the hours of running I had done, but I could not remember, and even better yet, I could not walk. Accepting defeat, I sit on the sidewalk just thinking about how my life is a mess, and nothing I do in this world is right, nothing is considered good and that sense of fulfillment is never there. "Is it true what Gardner believes in? That we have 8 different forms of intellects? Why am I so dumb that I feel like I have no intellect, neither fluid nor crystallized, and no general intellect either. I feel like I am the living counterclaim for the Cattell-Horn-Carrol theory, which states that generalized intellect is available in all of mankind, but is rather bridged off by fluid and crystallized intelligence. Or am I just not a human, not a living being as I have done nothing to prove my worth or humanity even, since all the suffering and death I witness on TV barely fazes me. Am I desensitized? Has the experience of trauma all of my life led me to this stage where I don't feel sympathy for people that are suffering, no matter the story, and no matter the pain they've been through? Or am I just living in a world that does not think I matter, that if I had taken my life nothing would change in the world? Do I matter to anyone enough to be recognized, I mean nobody even knows about all the suffering and pain i've been through in my life, so why would anyone care when I try to rid myself of it? Maybe that's the answer, the solution to all my problems. But that makes no sense, becuase scientifically I am matter, meaning I matter to the entropy of the universe. I am energy in my own, be it thermal, kinetic, potential and otherwise. I am a being, which has a purpose. If i don't matter to anyone, then I matter to planet Earth, our homeland and the only place we can currently call home, which we are slowly destroying ourselves, by emitting carbon and promoting pollution and littering. Why am I thinking about all these negatives? Why don't I let my feelings out and show that it's alright to suffer, but never in silence? Maybe it's because talking about your feelings is considered a taboo, something undesirable, something hated by society. This normative social influence on us must end, or become a good influence promoting change and proper well being both physically and mentally. People matter, things matter, and the environment matters. Why avoid the truth? Maybe since people today have gotten used to taking the sugarcoated version of the truth, basically a lie, and liars themselves think they're making "excuses" when they're just blatant lies. All these thoughts happened while I was sitting down, all alone on the sidewalk. Somehow, with the blink of an eye, I was back in my bed, confused about what had just happened to me. I immediately jump out of bed, going to my kitchen, and finding everything in order. Then, I said:
By Ahmad Sakkijha7 months ago in Psyche
"I Don’t Want to Die. I Just Don’t Want to Keep Waking Up Like This."
It’s not death I’m chasing. It’s silence. A break. A pause in the unbearable hum of existence that starts the second I open my eyes. It’s not that I hate life. It’s that I’m exhausted from surviving it. I wake up already tired, like I’ve lived a full day in my dreams — a nightmare marathon I don’t remember running. My body wakes up before I do, and by the time my mind catches up, I already wish it hadn’t.
By Noman Khan 7 months ago in Psyche
🧠 Can’t Turn Off Your Brain at Night? Try These 7 Surprisingly Simple Tricks to Stop Overthinking Before Bed
You’re exhausted. All you want is to close your eyes and drift off—but the second your head hits the pillow, your brain’s like, “Hey, remember that embarrassing thing you said in 2015?” Or worse, it suddenly decides now is the perfect time to solve all of life’s problems.
By Md Zillur Rahaman Chowdhury8 months ago in Psyche
The Power of Small Steps: My Journey to Healing. AI-Generated.
I didn’t wake up one day and realize I was broken. It was quieter than that — more like a slow, invisible unraveling. Days bled into nights, and somewhere in between, I stopped recognizing myself. I laughed at the right times, said “I’m fine” too often, and smiled just enough to keep anyone from asking real questions. But inside, I was exhausted. I wasn’t okay. And the worst part? I didn’t know how to fix it.
By Muhammad asif8 months ago in Psyche
Is Ketamine a Last Resort for Depression? When to Consider It
Depression is a labyrinth. For many, it feels like wandering endlessly through a fog with no clear exit. Traditional treatments, SSRIs, SNRIs, therapy, light the way for some. But others remain stuck in the dark, no matter how many medications they try or how long they spend in therapy. For those individuals, ketamine has emerged as a striking, controversial, and fast-acting alternative.
By Richard Bailey8 months ago in Psyche
How Long Does Ketamine Last for Depression? Duration, Effects, and What to Expect
Depression can be crushing. When traditional antidepressants don’t work, or take too long to kick in, some people turn to ketamine. Known for its rapid effects, ketamine has emerged as a breakthrough option in treatment-resistant depression.
By Richard Bailey8 months ago in Psyche
Breaking Free: My Journey Beyond Chronic Illness
Years of chronic illness were my constant companion. Beyond just diagnosis, chronic illness became more of a shadow that followed me around; whispering limitations, doubts and despair. Instead of just giving up jobs or plans; I had to give up who I once was as well. Today however, wellness is no longer just a dream but an established reality in my life.
By Robert Brown8 months ago in Psyche
The Psychology Behind Ghosting—and Why It Haunts Us
It starts with silence. Not the kind that comes after a long day or the quiet that settles between people who are comfortable with each other. This is different. This silence feels like a missing person case you weren’t prepared to file. One day, they’re texting you goodnight, and the next, your messages go unanswered like they were swallowed whole by something nameless and cold.
By Noman Khan 8 months ago in Psyche
Ketamine for Depression at Home: Is Telehealth Treatment Safe and Legal?
In recent years, the landscape of mental health treatment has undergone a quiet revolution. Among the most talked-about breakthroughs is the use of ketamine for depression, a method that, once confined to clinics and hospitals, is now being offered remotely, delivered right to patients’ homes.
By Richard Bailey8 months ago in Psyche
What to Expect During Your First Ketamine Infusion for Depression
When depression becomes relentless and traditional medications fail to offer relief, ketamine therapy may present a new path forward. It’s not a miracle cure, but for many, it opens a door that had long felt sealed shut. If you're preparing for your first ketamine infusion, it's normal to feel uncertain—even anxious. Understanding what to expect can ease your mind and help you step into the experience with greater confidence.
By Richard Bailey8 months ago in Psyche
