Latest Stories
Most recently published stories in Psyche.
Rebirth
It’s been about a year since I’ve had to chew and swallow your bits and pieces. Every now and then I feel the after effects of the narcissistic abuse you've given to me, and sometimes it's as simple as me noticing someone with a full head of curly brown hair. The post trauma picks at my scabs and leaves them wide open and bloody, never fully healed. I’ve developed a refined acquired taste for buttered over-burnt edges and bitterness. The hostility turned into familiarity turned into clarity. I took the smell of salt water home with me after all the days I spent emptying my obsession into repression into depression. Anything you’ve ever touched has been burned because you won’t be here to touch any tangible material again. I still smell your breath the night you pushed me into traffic and dared me to move a muscle. Precariously, I tuck myself tightly into bed, just incase you pull the sheets out from under me. I've told you before; it's not a magic trick if I don't disappear.
By Nicole Cafarelli4 years ago in Psyche
My little crab hand
My mama used to tell me I'm like a pink tree in a green forest. "People will stare because it's different. They will also stare because it's magnificent." As she'd hold me in her arms, I'd try to let her sweet touch and comforting words reassure my aching being. My mama tried very hard to make me understand that there is nothing wrong with me. Even more so, that being different is beautiful. Although I couldn't help but agonize in wondering why. Why? Why me? Flawed, shameful, ugly, faulty... I got the notion inside my head that, somehow, I was defective and needed to hide my hand.
By Katherine Emma4 years ago in Psyche
The Complicated Experience of Opening Up
Questioning your diagnosis or thinking there may be more to the answer. Sometimes when I talk to my friends about their experiences, it feels like they finally got the answer they were looking for. As for me, I spent an extended part of my life trying to cope with depression and anxiety. While that still may be so, I still question. I wonder if there is more to the story. Like something is being ignored. It's a long journey but a complicated one.
By Norma Jane4 years ago in Psyche
Drug Abuse Help : Inpatient Drug Rehabilitation Treatment in Cathedral City California
The best way to overcome drug addiction is to get in-patient drug rehab treatment at an alcohol and drug treatment center. Inpatient drug rehab is ideal for recovering drug addicts because the patient is under close medical supervision and can receive inpatient treatment at a good quality drug rehab facility under the close medical surveillance of a qualified doctor. However, it's important to note that many of these drug treatment centers can't make this claim. Inpatient drug rehab in Cathedral City CA offers outstanding drug rehab facilities, which will give you the best chance of getting well fast.
By Cristel Huff4 years ago in Psyche
The Decisions We Make
Life is full of moments that change everything. Imagine if you will staring into a mirror, then smashing it with a hammer. You can try to piece it back together, but it's forever altered. Sometimes those moments are massive like a house fire. Other times they are so small and seemingly insignificant you might have missed it. Have you ever taken a moment to look back on your life and thought about the changes and challenges you have overcome? Allow me a bit of your time to tell you a few instances in my life that have shattered proverbial mirrors in my life that have changed everything. However, I feel the need to inform you, the reader, that this does deal with sexual abuse and a suicide attempt.
By Tiggerish Eeyore (Aaron Wood)4 years ago in Psyche
Death Shaped My Life For The Better
My coming-of-age story was just a prelude to the rest of my life. Painful experiences and what to do with them was the greatest lesson that thrust me into adulthood. It started the summer of my 17th birthday. I was a junior in high school and my cousin ended her own life. It sparked something in me that was fighting to be seen and heard. I too had wanted to kill myself at the age of 16. When I told my mother that she cried, and she couldn’t understand why I wanted to die. Honestly back then neither could I but I didn’t know how to live.
By Matthew Mccahey4 years ago in Psyche
The Narcissists Oppressive Communication Style
Have you ever been trapped in a droning conversation with a narcissist? Did they ramble on ceaselessly about nothing, weaving tall tales of nonsensical word salad, or repeat the same story you've heard over and over? When you tried to join in on the convo were you met with rage and accused of constantly interrupting them or were you completely ignored as their diarrhea of the mouth continued?
By Candace Ranee Moon4 years ago in Psyche
Why The Narcissist Wants to Erase Your Identity
If you have been in a relationship with a narcissist you are probably familiar with that confused foggy feeling that overtakes you when you are around them for any length of time. This feeling is a symptom of systematic gaslighting and thought control tactics. I remember constantly feeling muddled and disorganized around my abuser as I was never truly safe to be myself or permitted to question his endless rambling narratives.
By Candace Ranee Moon4 years ago in Psyche
