Self sabotaging

Constantly putting others before me has created a chain where I’m stuck to the past and bound to the earth beneath me

I would always move to the right for you or for them while I let my positive thoughts and wants remain stagnant

Constantly putting myself on the back burner unwilling to look within and learn what I truly want further

Self sabotaging, emotions camouflaging

I treated myself like a piece of ripped up leather when in all reality I have always been a gorgeous peacock feather

I would dim my light and not put up a fight outside of you because I cared for someone I thought was true

So now while I constantly look towards my future, I am done with one foot in, one foot out never giving myself a chance to believe in my own future

So that was then and this is now,

I will no longer allow myself to move towards others

And bow