lost in darkness

i sit in front of

my computer

staring at

a screen i

pay no attention to

dark

room, my phone

still lit up

that message

the message

says it all.

it’s over . Over.

i sit

computer

in front of me

why?

it is

all

i

can ask… why?

i

thought he loved me,

i guess i was wrong - No!

he never

loved me, i may have

loved him

thinking of him

i do not want to be

thinking of him

because i now hate him

Why? Why?

it wasn't real

it felt real, but it

wasn’t real

and i am

over it.

i am.

through dark halls i

go to my friend, my

support. it will be

Okay.

bags under my eyes,

mess of hair, in my

pajamas i go

through the kitchen,

where smells of

old rice

grimy walls

and many moths do live

counter top dark,

dirty, through

another dark hall

i see light through

the crack of

her door

paint chipped. just

a minute she says.

i go back to

my room.

heart heavy

and tears

threaten to choke

why?

It’s over.