Have you heard of the game chameleon?
I fear I play it far too well.
Skilled to pretend
i’m something i’m not.
I am
what you say you sell.
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Although just a lizard,
i respect chameleons a great deal.
They influence your sight -
your sense
of what is real.
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Coercing patterns and shifting shades
from blue
to yellow
to green.
Changing their skin to disappear
between
the in-between.
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Living in the bushes,
on a branch
or tree.
Hiding ensures their existence
remains unknown.
remains free.
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I never assumed a lizard
could feel so relatable.
A species
and myself;
ever growing less debatable.
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Unlike most,
when their tail breaks
it won’t re-grow.
Breaking risks exposure.
This
disrupts
their veils flow.
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Eyes always focused
on two things
at one time.
This resembles writing
to mask your pain with rhyme.
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Subtly, I always
blend,
pretend,
and bend.
Trained myself
to stop.
Suspend.
Then mute
to self-defend.
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Quick in response,
then I’m either frozen,
or i’m blind.
I change my colours to suit;
another’s ever changing mind.
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Seeking closeness or closure.
No, not too close.
I will hide.
Afraid of unmasking
my transparent underside.
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I am my surroundings.
Or more formally;
a reflection
of you.
I hold up my mirror
to keep you
in my view.
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You’ll never truly know me.
I’ll ensure this is true.
See, if you like you,
I know this means that
you will like me too.
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And if you think you’ve caught me
or convinced yourself you do.
You won’t see me -
remember?
The only me you know
is you.
About the Creator
Latisha Fairfull
Writing a record for my inner child and the woman I am still learning to stand beside.
Not poetry for answers,
But poetry for breath,
For noticing,
And choosing to live from the inside out.


Comments (2)
I love the way you've captured the cost of camouflage here. I love that final line.
Oh wow, this felt sad and creepy to me at the same time. You wrote this so beautifully!