In the Cloud

And then in an instant

I’m saying things and question them

Why did I say that?

Why did I laugh like that?

I feel like I’m insane

You made me insane

That’s why it’s crazy in love

I feel so insane

To try and ask so much of someone

To love

When they don’t feel the same,

You don’t love me back

And it drives me insane

Maybe I’m overreacting to loss

Maybe it all becomes clear when I’m in the cloud

Everything is going a million miles an hour

I just can’t catch up

Can’t even follow myself

I can’t slow down

It’s hard to breathe

And it feels all so fast that I’m just going to seize

But it never comes

It never happens

I just get stuck here

But eventually

It slows down… I calm… it passes

It’s all so terrifying.

And I just want to cry it out, to scream it away

But it happened, and it’ll happen again.