You are not alone

Do you remember the first time you realized you were different? It may have felt like everybody around you changed, or that there was a disconnect. Guess what, you are not alone! I remember growing up being picked on and feeling as though I was on this journey alone. My mom would tell me all the time that I am set apart for a reason and being picked on is a part of the journey. I did not know what that meant at the time, but as life progressed, I began to learn. I was being called to a higher purpose and to get there I needed to develop tough skin physically and spiritually. Of course, it hurt to find out friends were not really friends and family members would speak ill against my name due to their lack of understanding of self but choosing me was more important. When I started to choose myself and love me more things began to transform. For the first time in my life I felt free and safe to be me. No longer operating to please people or caring what they had to say. I started embracing me, connecting with my higher self, and allowing "spirit" to guide me on my journey.

To navigate your journey with a sense of ease you must accept and love through the highs and the lows. Every day will not be sunshine and there are lessons that are going to make you want to give up, but you must keep going. If you resist learning the lesson, the lesson will chase you and cycle back around using different faces, places, or things. It is in the shadow work where true freedom resides. You must accept your darkness and find power in it. The power that frees you from your past pain, disappointments, and regrets. Every lesson and every dark part of you was designed to get you on course to your purpose.

You must also learn what triggers you and ask yourself why? Triggers are unhealed parts of yourself that irritate or anger you when others possess those traits. One of my biggest triggers was a person who listened with the intent to respond instead of actively listening. I felt like I was not being heard which led me to becoming angry and not wanting to continue the conversation. Why was this bothering me so much? As a child I did not feel as though I was being heard which caused me to shut down and not speak up for myself. I would do what others wanted me to do because I felt that would keep the peace, but I was not being true to myself. I remember times that I would speak up for myself and get shut down or laughed at, which caused me to be insecure about having a voice. Once I figured out my why, I began writing and speaking affirmations over myself to build my confidence. My favorite go to affirmations became “I AM confident in my voice” and “I AM allowed to say and do what is best for me and my peace”.

No matter where you are on your journey remember to choose you. Remember that no matter what you do people will always have something to say whether good or bad. Remember to handle yourself with love and give love to the dark parts of yourself. Remember to make the conscious choice to choose you daily. Joy is a choice, loving yourself is a choice, peace is a choice and as you become more intentional about your choices you will start to see transformation. Be thankful for the past but do not let it hold you hostage. Forgive yourself and others daily because your soul deserves that peace. Remember you are not alone, and your soul tribe will align to you when the time is right. Isolation is a gift and allows you to heal without the energy of others. Use it to become who you were created to be.

Wishing you love and light throughout your journey.

In case no one tells you today,

I love you!