What's Raging ?

What is Raging ? Raging is when you are trapped in deep depression, in deep thoughts that no one seems to understand. People say they understand you but always go against you, what you're saying isn't working in their eyes so they doubt your abilities to find your own way out. This makes you intoxicate yourself with toxics in efforts to escape the feelings and the responsibility of dealing with those emotions while sober. Advice doesn't work only drugs. Raging is a way people express their frustration, it can be sex, fighting, exercising , partying, traveling and recklessly loving anyone. It's a call for the love we were told we're supposed to have, fooled my movies, Tv's, and anything else that we were told about families or people.

Being a Ragers you're aware that you own a heart, more than one heart. Your heart breaks and creates a new one, it multiples. When you feel like stop loving forever and this is for when you're dealing with another, you got to find something about yourself to love. Like your hair, your singing, good cooking, good gamer, good writer, or a helper. You got to learn no one will love you more than you and your Creator. You aren't worthless, everything ain't meant to work out and this world doesn't want it to work out. Your relationship with yourself and your Creator is the only one you should be worrying about the most.

Not everyone understands what they are doing and a lot of people are unaware that they're Ragers, we are living in a time were people are unaware of their spiritual side. We make Daily mistakes unaware of those things that are invisibly attacking around us, thinking them things they say we supposed to be daily are the things that are hurting our spirits. I wonder if everyone will wake up and notice they're raging, I know once they do this world will become safer. Working on bettering that part of you so you can think more peaceful. Express that part of you and be surprised by how many people are your equal. Can't keep taking our pain out on others because we lack something another has. This is the ultimate distraction from our power.

They're many reasons why I rage but It all started with my mom. My mom left me at school one day and I ended up in a random home. It was so weird, I was probably five years old. The damage really messed up me up, wondering where's my mom and will she ever come back for me. I don't remember talking much and I don't remember too many interaction with people but I do remember the smell of this one particular home I stay at and it smelled depressing. My mom did eventually come and get me but my sister was no where to be found and I suddenly had a brother again. From their my mom took me and my brother to a friend's house to watch us while she disappeared again. We stayed at her friends house for sometime but this time instead of being surprised that I was going to a foster care, I actually seen the guys come and get us. Being abandoned is the reason I rage mostly, everyone that ever walked into my life has left me alone. I still check up on them but seems they don't care for too long. God seen this happen to me a lot, that's why he's the only one I know that'll never leave me and still believes in me.