The Night That Turned My Life Around

I can still remember that night clearly. The surroundings were silent, the room was plunged into darkness. Only one thought was spinning inside my head. Everything seemed to have stopped, only my inner voice was talking to myself. I realized that my mental state was not good. So I felt completely empty. I was broken.

I was 24 at the time. I had no job. My love relationship was over. I returned to my parents' house, to that old small house where I grew up. But as difficult as the surrounding situation was, my inner life was even worse. I did not recognize myself. It felt like I was no longer in myself.

I woke up at noon like every day. Most of the day was spent on YouTube, Netflix, and unnecessary social media. It felt like I was seeking refuge in these, so that I could escape the pain inside me. But there was no escape. As soon as night came, those old thoughts returned. There was no room even in the world of sleep. I am slowly losing my confidence, self-esteem, and everything.

The beginning of change

Does change ever come like a bolt of lightning? Or does it start with a miraculous event? It didn't happen in my life. Rather, change began from a small moment—which many people may not give importance to.

That night, while scrolling through Instagram, I suddenly came across a quote:

If you don't keep your path straight, you will always be lost.

This line struck me like lightning. I suddenly realized that I am not unlucky. I am just a lost traveler. I am not in control of life, because I am not doing anything myself. I am just wondering how life will change.

The next morning, I wrote in my diary: What can I control today?

This question was the beginning of my new life. Small new habits.

The change did not happen in a day. I started with small changes. At first, I decided to wake up at 8 am. It was very difficult, but I kept trying every day. I would wake up in the morning listening to the birds, walking. As if I felt alive again.

Then I unfollowed those people on Facebook and Instagram who were constantly reminding me of my failure.

I started reading. Not just to gain knowledge, but for peace of mind.

The book The Power of Now changed my way of thinking.

The book taught me that most of our sorrows come from the past or the fear of the future. Yet we neglect the present. So we should not neglect it.

I would write in my diary every day: This afternoon the sun was looking very beautiful as it was setting. I had a cup of tea in my hand, just as I wanted. Such small joys started helping me to fulfill my childish desires.

Facing Fear

A big challenge came at one point. I enrolled in a public speaking workshop.

I knew I was afraid of speaking in front of people. But this time I told myself. Where there is fear, fear conquers. I have to move forward.

I made many mistakes while going to the workshop, I got stuck, my hands shook. But I didn’t give up. That was my first victory.

Me now

It’s been 18 months. I now work as a content strategist at a Mental Health Startup. I listen to people, write their stories, and share what I’ve learned from my experiences.

I have a small social media platform where I write about mindset, change, and small habits.

I’ve learned that life is not a destination. It’s an ongoing journey. I’m now a companion on that journey.

The last word for you

If you’re feeling alone right now, feeling frustrated, feeling like life has stopped, remember this:

You’re not broken, you’re standing right on the threshold of change.

Not everything will change in a day. But if you

make one small decision today. Change one thought. Start one habit.

But you have to give it time. I did it, so can you. Nothing is impossible.

About the Author:
[Ramjan Hossan) is a content writer and mindset coach who works on life-changing stories and mental health. He finds inspiration from his own journey.