healing
How to heal fully and properly.
Every Little Thing..
04/23/20 I’m a mess. Let’s just state the obvious, 2020 has been so depressing and hard. Like yes previous years weren’t all peaches and cream but shit.. Give us a break! I started my Junior year of High School in the Fall of 2019 and it was the most stressful thing ever. People used to always tell me that Junior year would be the hardest, but I always deemed it as an exaggeration. Well I was wrong and they were right, Junior year drained me.
By KS6 years ago in Motivation
Howling at the Moon
I have lived in Idaho my whole entire life and I know what is it like to live in a small community. A lot of the time you are forgotten about because the whole world is focusing on something else. There are many mysteries that come with Idaho and the people who live here would like to keep it that way. The thing that most people don’t know is that we have many communities that are brought together and made stronger through difficult situations.
By Natalie C..6 years ago in Motivation
The Pagaent.
September 2016, the month that changed it all. I had been working as a hairdresser in a little village just outside Galway city, called clarinbridge. It was a really tiny rural village with a strong sense of community. For years every September they had held a festival named The Clarinbridge Oyster Festival. Galway city itself also hosted one a month later but it held no comparison. There were a series of things involved in this which made it the extravaganza it was and pulled every sort of folk from the village to get involved . There were radio and magazine interviews, Market days, promotional nights /days and of course the queens selection night! Each year the festival committee would hold some short interviews with local girls who hoped to be crowned that years Oyster Queen. In 2016 I was crowned that said lucky winner. I had been put forward by my boss in the hair salon. Tracy and I had worked together for four years at this stage and had become the best of friends, I had been having a rough time in my personal life and my confidence was low so she believed by entering me for this title it would boost my confidence, put me back out into the world and help me make new friends and connections whilst also boosting our salon from a buissness point! Once the queen is chosen the committee would pick a beauty salon and a hair salon to style her for the year pro bono! In return the salons would be promoted and given inside access to the festival activities, so to be crowned the queen and work inside the salon that was chosen was a double victory really!
By Jade Cunniffe 6 years ago in Motivation
M A Y B E
I texted you today. As usual, no answer. Before it would have hurt. Before I would cry. Why? It’s been months. I should be over it right? Why waste my time? I’m doing better, feeling better. Finally on an uphill. So why back track? I’ve put you on such a high pedestal. My own fault that that you never viewed me that high. I could never understand. Maybe I never will. Do we ever really get over The One? How many Ones’ must we go through before we let it go? I’ve loved before but not like this. How many times have we said this, felt this? Do yoYou u even feel?! Is it a program that you’ve mastered, a chip that plays over and over saying “Fuck Him!” “Fuck his feelings!” Some days I wish I could say that, do that. Why did I even reach out? Am I stupid? Have I lost my mind? Waiting for a response that will never come but guess what? I’ve stopped waiting. You are no longer the dominantion of my thoughts. Be lucky that I still care. It’s crazy how things change. One day you can be flying above the clouds, the next thing you know you’re making a crash landing. You wonder who is in control if you’ve lost your mind. I think that if you are in tune with your emotions then you are bound to find trouble. Not because you seek it out but cause and effect play roles bigger than you can possibly imagine. The heart wants what it wants and believe me nothing on this earth can change that. Dealing with an idle mind when you are in a transitional state is dangerous, trust me, I’ve been there and it’s not fun. You hold the key, you have the power. You have the ability to save yourself from yourself. Losing control is in your hands. Be careful, be cautious. It’s okay to put yourself first. Saying no isn’t as hard as it may seem. Look around and understand that in order to keep living you have to do what’s right for self first. Begging for attention is a thing of the past. I’ve been learning that I have no reason to go out of my way to prove myself to you or anyone else. Though it’s over, I still find myself reaching out. I find myself still looking for your approval. I’ve given all I could to the point where I have gone without and I was okay. Was I truly okay though? I wonder if I played along because I feared losing you more than I already have. I wonder if I lessened myself because I felt it necessary. What did you give me? What did you sacrifice? Why wasn’t what I offered good enough? So many questions but I know I’ll never get the answers. It blows my mind to think you have such a strong stance against me and how I feel. The fact that I have become public enemy number one in your eyes not only saddens me but disappoints me so. Maybe the lesson I thought I learned still has to be. Maybe moving on really means just that. Moving on from you one hundred percent without looking back. After all that’s how all this started, I looked back! I don’t want to spend the rest of my life twisting in the wind. Finding strength has never been hard to fin always been more beautiful than a lie. Maybe that’s it. Maybe it’s time to stop relying on maybes. Maybe it’s finally time.
By Antwan Monegan 6 years ago in Motivation
the beauty of self isolation
I wake up everyday to a media plagued with disease (literally), bad news stacking up like unwanted junk mail, but a thousand times worse. I’m confined within the four walls of the cube that is my home. The place that I’ve looked forward to returning to after a long day out has slowly morphed into a prison-like structure, it’s air heavy and silence overbearing. What started out as a new schedule has turned into a ball and chain I can’t get rid of, like clockwork it clatters on. I’ve tried out new hobbies: guitar, embroidery, and drawing, things I’ve always labeled with “I’ll do it later.” in an effort to fight off the boredom of daily life and find happiness amidst the chaos. However, it was the silent, abstract moments before I drifted off to sleep when I discovered the good in the evil, the beauty in the dying.
By isabella6 years ago in Motivation
Lifes Going Nowhere
The worst kind of heartbreaks in life are the ones that will not leave you alone. My biggest regret is how I chose to manage my time in the past. I find that I have been given every possible oppurtunity to enjoy life only to suffer further. My descions have led me to conclude that the way I chose to live before was incorrect and that I need to make the necessary changes in order to salvage and rebuild another life in this plane of existence.
By Hypodermically Speaking6 years ago in Motivation
Blues
Call me crazy, but I think I'm meant to disappear. Since I was born, no matter how much I tried to succeed at something, my efforts were soon put to waste. Relationships, goals, career, job opportunities. Every single try was soon put to waste, why? I'm still trying to figure that out, I was always an honor student, an excellent employee, an amazing planner, and a dedicated girlfriend.
By Lord M6 years ago in Motivation
