healing
How to heal fully and properly.
Live A While
Almost 30 and still tryin to find my place in this world. Out of all the people in the world there is only one me. No duplicates no clones, just a walkin example of my upbringin. We go through life thinkin we got all the answers and then we find ourselves questionin everything we think we know...my Dad always told me, "just live. You may not understand everything now but as you get older you will look back and say now I know what my Dad was sayin." #trustory I still got a lot of thinkin and growin to do. Its only recently that I realize I got a lot of decisions to make. Sometimes the path we tread will eventually lead to a dead end and we gotta set out to find a new course. Dont beat yourself up...its not the end of the road..we all will have trials and tribulations to go through. Each of us have our own test to take...the question is will you come out on top?...I dunno maybe Im just a fool maybe I think differently then everyone, and thats ok too. We all aren’t meant to travel the same path as everyone else and you want to know the sad but true reality, Some of us plan our future and who we’re taking with us to the end of time. Sorry, there is a chance that life will have other plans for you, and this won’t happen for everyone, Some action unfortunate do you have there vision plans for the future go as according to plan. I am in no way mad or jealous or secretly pouting to myself. I am actually elated to see other individuals actually have there wishes and dreams become a reality. Now does that mean all hope is lost for me? Absolutely not, as long as you’re willing, you’re able and there is nothing that should stop you or come in the way of your goals and dreams. I had big plans and visions for my life, I have it completed everything then I envisioned all my life, but I have made the best attempts at adjusting to the unseen detours and roadblocks I didn’t plan in my life so soon. You’re probably wondering what I meant by plan so soon, well I was 26 years old well my dad died. I didn’t plan choose a parrot that early at that age, in fact I planned to be much older and my dad to be much older as well you know at that age when our parents get older in we reach that cycle of life? Yeah, but there’s no law that says that we are all promised to be old when we die there are children dying before their parents. No parent plans to bury their child we always expect the parents to go first but the truth is that’s not always the case. The loss of my dad really took the vision and drive I had for my life away for me, I thought I had lost it forever but that forever was only for six years. There was always this voice in the back of my mind still pushing me and encouraging me to still make something of myself and be the man I knew was in me to be successful and do great things. I listened to that voice, and allowed myself grieve but not to the point where I lost myself. If you have ever lost a dad, And it doesn’t matter if you were close or not, you feel that disconnect, that pain and emptiness. I could never describe in the words the feeling of nothingness, the feeling of feeling confused, and trying to except reality. I’ve put myself in that position long before it actually happened I try to make myself prepare for when I knew it was coming, but I just didn’t know when, or that it would be so soon in my life. I am fortunate at I was able to make my dad proud and hear him say the words and every son or daughter wishes to hear, “I’m proud of you.” To know that I made my dad problem, I believe it was one of the things that helped me get through. To be completely honest with you, I didn’t know what I wanted to do with my life after my dad passed. Everything that seemed crystal clear was now blurred and unrecognizable.
By Kevin Nelson5 years ago in Motivation
Gone with the Wind
Under the grey skies of northern England do I stand, on a cool, autumnal day. On both sides of me are two rows of terraced houses, long and drab, blocking out the wind to the best of their ability, but these gusts are crafty and resourceful, slipping through all the available openings and reaching out to me, catching the stray ends of my hair and making them dance like marionettes.
By Peter Spering5 years ago in Motivation
Out of Rock Bottom
I was 26 when my pipe-dream of owning a boutique coffee roasting company spiraled into a full-blown reality. Five years of gut blood and mind sweat rewarded me with an incomprehensible wealth of knowledge and "real-world" experience. Now 32, I'm separated from my wife and mother of my two-year-old daughter, unemployed, $250,000 in debt, dating a 21 year-old sex worker and living in the basement of my father's condominium.
By Jared Field5 years ago in Motivation
these hands
Triumphantly, punching my chest, clenched fist, three times. Boom, boom boom. I need to remind myself of it. Remind myself not to judge the oddly few bad times, remind myself of the achievements, remind me of the legacy we created together. For it is through our children, who will remain once we are gone, that I mark myself and remind me not to drop my head. It was our love that created them firstly and foremost, and it is our love that sustains and empowers them.
By paolo Paul denaro5 years ago in Motivation
The sky's the limit
The sky's the limit Do you ever just lift your eyes to the sky to snag a glimpse of the never ending beauty in the fluffiest clouds or even the anger of storm clouds lingering overhead? It is mesmerizing on so many levels. Escaping the bustle of the city with its anonymity and coldness has been our plan for such a very long while, most likely before we even realized that it was our destiny. As life’s journey leads us on the twists and turns of each phase, we gather knowledge, dreams, desires that in the farthest reaches of my mind were cultivating the need for peace, love and harmony. Not to appear too cliche for me and mine, we both traveled many miles and survived personal struggles so when destiny brought our broken wandering souls together it was meant to be. Fueled by the elements of coastal life and our love of nature lead us to this place we now call home.
By Carolee Baumgartner5 years ago in Motivation
Lessons in Loneliness
I can't recall a time loneliness has ever approached me as gently as it has recently. I could source the reason for this emotion on many external factors, one of them being blatantly obvious, but to do that would feel like missing the point. Loneliness is not an emotion that's foreign to me as I've felt it for most of my life. Loneliness and I could even have been considered close friends in the past, but it has never risen within me the way it has recently.
By Alexandria5 years ago in Motivation
The Prison's we sentence ourselves to
One of the worst things you can do in life is anything that puts you in a prison. The majority of you who read that probably thought the reference was to breaking the law. That's only one example. Life has become so much more complex than just abiding by the letter of the law. There are so many more rules we must abide by adhere to or face a punishment of some kind. Plus there's such a miniscule margin of error, that if we don't do all these things flawlessly, we could find ourselves in other types of prisons. Or worse, put someone else in a prison like a hospital bed for life after a night of celebrating that promotion you stayed just well inside the margin of error for three years to get. To put in such long, grueling hours, day after day.Getting out of bed on time to make it in to work punctually, skipping lunches and staying later than your boss Month after month, to get that extra step ahead of friends who sit next to you at your job only to make that one mistake of NOT stopping your celebrating early enough, sentencing someone you never met to the prison of a hospital bed, in need of constant medical treatmentor worse, the most permanent of prisons, death. While you are in prisoned, not just behind bars, but within the cage of guilt your conscience has put your soul in forever all because you weren't flawless for that one evening. For as far as we've progressed and evovled, we've also made less room for error in society, My error was not paying as close attention to my high blood pressure. Not being flawless about that aspect of my health caused a clot to form in by circulatory system. On one October evening in 2019, a piece of that clot broke off and traveled to a blood vessel in my brain causing an iscemic stroke. That stroke has forever paralyzed the left side of my body. sentencing me to a lifetime of not being able to move my left arm. At first it also mean't not being able to move my left leg as well. Inprisoning me to the use of a wheelchair for what I thought would be forever as well. We made things so complicated and complex that the margin for error has become so small, that nearly all of us has a good chance of losing a freedom we currently take for granted and being placed in a prison of some kind.Whether it's iron bars, a gulag of guilt, a hospital bed or a wheelchair. It's nearly impossible to avoid it. There is hope that you can release yourself from these prison's after being sentenced to live within them. Either serve your prison term, forgive your self and/or receive forgiveness from those you've harmed. Or choose to get your life back and become obsessed to regain the freedom you lost by working sunrise to sunset to rebuild your body. I lost 131 pounds and made myself strong again to get out of my prison, my wheelchair. I no longer need to be pushed by someone else to get down a hall or up a stairway. I stand up and walk it myself now.We must be flawless in life from maintaining our health, avoiding impaired driving, being careful in what we write, tweet, post online or it could cost us our source of income or reputation. Plus being being careful in what words we say and who we say those words to. I do find myself in another kind of prison now and it's in the form of medical bill debt. But that's a story for another time and I wanna go for a walk. Let Freedom Reign.
By Randall Wright5 years ago in Motivation
5 Things I Learned During The Pandemic
If you are anything like me, you want this pandemic to end. Not only has it cost thousands of lives and put other’s health at risk, but it has also significantly hindered the quality of life of just about everyone, both individually and within the leadership world. But as the quote above suggests, challenges can be a disguised way to foster new perspectives and opportunities. So, as negative and unfavorable as this year has been, I want to shed some light on the situation as it stands and the amazing realizations that have surfaced as a result of it.
By Kimberly Seabrooks5 years ago in Motivation
The Way It Was
A childhood not that different from some but a world apart from so many. I was raised the eldest of five, our parents were there most of the time, our grandparents, aunts and uncles stepped in where they could and we had a place to call home. Simple, normal, nothing to be concern about right, on the outside we were whole, happy, a typical family unit.
By Blackbird5 years ago in Motivation
