Stay Strong. Pt.1

I have been fighting Longterm Covid for over a year. And many don’t fully realise the toll it can have on a person. It has changed my life completely. To the point where it is a daily struggle to carry out basic tasks, such as chopping veg, or something as simple as making a coffee…

I know I’m not alone with these kinds of struggles, but I also know it isn’t easy to reach out, discuss or even want to do anything. It can bring you into depression if you allow it to take over your mind. And it probably has for me. Despite being in denial for so long. Which is why I want to share my struggles, my fight, my internal war to do everything I can to rebuild myself. Especially when I have been abandoned by everyone around me that were supposed to be there. My place of work are not helping, I have had 1 phone call in the space of 1 year, and wasn’t to ask “how are you coping”, but rather “when are you coming back.” And the government isn’t helping financially. Life is extremely hard, yet during the pandemic I was classed as a “Key Worker, feeding the nation.” But now, who is here to feed me? Imagine being told “thank you for helping us when we needed it most”, to “sorry, you’re on your own now.”

I have come to realise that the only person that can help me, is myself. And I want others to know, that it is ok, to not be okay. Please don’t feel that you are alone, pease don’t feel there is no one out there that cares. Because it takes fellow human beings to look out for each other, where everywhere else failed.

I have found some amazing people along the way, through online social networks. People I would never have met in person. But they have been absolutely amazing in helping me stay strong, helping me remain focused. even when I fall back at times, they are still there. They are all over the world, and despite time differences, they have become like family. And when we are going through such struggles, such tragedies in life, there is nothing we need more.

I learnt through them, that no matter what I’m going through, life is always worth the fight. And it is ok to show weakness in front of them, it is ok to open up your emotions to such ones. Why? Because that is how they help us become stronger.

And this is why I’m starting this blog, because I know what it’s like to feel isolated, to feel abandoned, to feel alone. Like everyone else just doesn’t want to be there anymore, even when you were there for them when they needed you. Always remember, you are not alone. Help is out there, just never give up. I do hope, that my experience, my stories, my struggles can help at least one person. Help them to, reach out.

I will happily answer questions sent to me, replying as and when I can. But most importantly, I want to remind anyone who feels alone. You’re not. We’re all around, we just need that push to take the next step forward.

I have found things that have helped me, which I will touch on as I submit my stories. I am new to this site, so I will still be adjusting. So please be patient with me. But know this, it’s going to be ok.

My main quote will be: Stay Strong. You got this!