Am I really going to write why I can not sleep? Quick answer, why yes I am, lol. Do not worry, I am going to try to keep it as short as possible. Tonight, which is nearing midnight. It will also be after that when I am done writing this story. I have a lot on my mind. One of the things is that I am not where I need to be financially. Another, is that I deeply long for a spouse. Then, there is the fact that I can not sleep, cause I am thinking about all these thoughts. I do not want to rid myself of my thoughts, for then I would be mindless. I simply want them to come back another day. If I could go back in time. One I would mess up my present, but two I would not go into debt for a car. I know that I would be further along as a whole if I was set monetarily. However, maybe that is an outright fallacy. Since we are thinking figuratively, then maybe if I was bolder I would put one foot after another and go get "her." Man, what I would give to have a spring forward right into my dream life. Then again, I would miss real life. I would miss the life long lessons that I have learned in this journey. Like, one, do not do the things you know you're not supposed to. Two, do your homework, three switch the letters around in "depression," and it is, "I pressed on." Now, thirty minutes have passed since I started composing this trek. I am obviously still awake, and am still boring the reader. However, maybe not, it is possible that one is intrigued or finds themselves in the same perdicament as me. Just instead of writing a boring story, one is reading or perhaps listening to. Why does it bother me so much that I can not sleep? I guess it is because these are the types of things that one loses sleep over. If only I had a switch to cut off my thoughts for a while, so that I could get some shut eye. Funny thing is that I have already done what I know to do to fall asleep. Now the only thing to do is finish this entry, and possibly get some well needed rest. I will finish this with some wishful thinking. Hopefully, I will be where I want to be in a year. I am wanting to live in my own place. At least, be doing what I love. With the one I love, would be ideal. The pessimist in me is saying that that will most likely not happen in a year. I mean heck, we thought 2020 was going to be the bomb. Apparently, we were wrong about that one. Hey, I thought this was wishful thinking. Sorry, I am not a glass half full or overflowing kind of guy. If anything the glass is empty, dryer than the desert at the halfway point, haha. Dang, now it is a new day. I have not gotten any sleep yet. What else can I say that would at least get these thoughts out of my head? I do not know the answer to that one. I was hoping to find peace for myself by putting my thoughts into a feature. Well I know this, that I will find peace soon enough so that I can rest. My eyes are actually getting heavy now. I know that I will be able to fall asleep soon enough.
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Solomon Frew
A city boy, who feels stuck in the country.
A helpless romantic, knight in shining armor.
A young adult who is said to be wise beyond his years.
A well rounded, multifaceted, smart, strong, godly, gentleman.
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What am I doing with my life? Is a question I feel like I ask myself repeatedly. Especially, when I have a lot on my mind. This question arises especially when I feel like I am wasting time. Time is the greatest commodity, and its taken for granted. Why do I waste time, when I can invest it. Well how do I invest in this? Some, choose to store their life in themselves. Others, decide to stock their lives in those around them. Either way, seconds are spent, and are necessary. On the other hand, there are people who just flat out do not care. Those are the people that waste their goods. Still the question persists, how am I to be a good steward of my time? Simple answer, take the time to take time with those that one encounters in their everyday. What do I mean by encounters? I mean those who one will cross paths with. On my first job in a corporation. I was taught to greet everyone in a ten feet radius. Man, at times this was annoying, and even inconvenient to accomplish. Even though it was, I still did my best to make sure, that everyone of those customers, that I came across, felt welcomed in the store. This is the type of determination that I feel everyone of us should have for the people that we come within contact of. To treat them as we would want to be treated. Man, what a world we would live in. If we spent the time to take time for others. Looking for every opportunity that we would be needed. Being that person that people can rely on to always be there for them. Again, I ask what am I doing with my life? Am I spending it, or is it sadly wasting away? Am I investing it in myself, so that I can in return share it with others? Am I learning from my mistakes to enrich my own life, and the life of those around me? Am I learning new things about life everyday? Am I successful, and what is the definition of success to me? Is that even realistic, and a fair expectation of me? What season of life am I in currently? Am I going through this life without purpose? What is my purpose, my reason to live life? For me, its to serve others needs. Which is why I do not like to be needy. However, I think that all of us need someone. All of us, were made with the want to be needed. How does this have anything to do with time? Well, I believe that all of these questions help me spend my time instead of wasting it. For, if we have a mission, then we have a reason to live. We all do not have the same assignment. Neither, do we all have the same dreams or vision. However, if we have one or all these things. Then we have purpose in our every day. Therefore, we can do the things that I have mentioned. Which would help our lives have meaning. Then hopefully, with our last breath we would be able to say that we lived our best life. That is my goal to live life to the fullest. Then I will be able to have peace with myself and those that will carry my legacy after I am gone. Kindness is more infectious than the damage of hate. I would rather be grateful in my last days. Instead of regretting that time that I had.
By Solomon Frew5 years ago in Motivation
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Good morning, freedom-seekers! Today we’re gonna be looking at autonomy. A strange word, I know; one many would probably look at blankly and run away from on sight. We’re gonna figure out what it actually means, consider how it’s achieved, and decipher just how deeply most of us are tangled up in dependence without realising it.
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