Lifes Painful Experience

This is a time to get real with myself and everyone else. This is a time we need to come together for the better of our pain and misery. So, I ask every one of us who are lost, out of place, misunderstood, isolated, unsure or have major identity loss to take a very deep breath and keep reading on.

I’ve struggled for a while now. I’ve been struggling with something I didn’t even completely understand. I have been stuck in a mental prison for a long time it seems, I am pretty aware of the fact that I don’t yet fully understand or have all the answers. I have been moving at a very slow process of my pain. What hurts most out of all of it is I was completely blinded to a simple messaged that could have saved me from a lot of this process and soul breaking.

Have you ever sat and thought to yourself, “am I the only one?” well, no you are not the first and you won’t be the last to think no one can relate to your story. Threw countless never-ending stories posted on the matters of your own mental pain, I know you have come across the same situation I have that seems like answers, leaving you with even more questions.

If you find yourself succumbing to the never-ending “It takes time” or “trust the process” or even “It will get better, just try to be happy” without actually being able to have the proper knowledge on what exactly you’re processing or going through emotionally? Well, this is where my message begins.

Some of us have a loving family, financial stability, or a loving partner that believe it or not? If one or all of these things are stable in our lives can play a huge role in aiding in the understanding of knowing the process of what they’re dealing with mentally but what happens when you don’t have the support of a positive voice in your life? What happens when you turn to a negative example of these foundations that only seem to hurt you further, leaving you lonely with yet even more questions and mental anguish?

Well, my story, and a lot like so many can’t find words to explain what is going on. I have struggled because of this and I want to make an impact here today if not for someone else, then this will be for me, for the sole purpose of my very own peace of mind. I hope I can help and reach you guys so you can get a very rare understand from the mixed one forever stuck in your head.

Trust, is a very hard one I know this all too well. How can you trust anyone or anything when you don’t have a positive thing to bounce off of? So, I’m not asking you to trust me, I am not a doctor, I am a 24-year-old girl with a life story that may seem like nothing or something depending on who you are. All I ask of you is to read and I hope it can help you out, that is all I want to do.

So, I would like to point something out that stuck with me from the moment I heard it, as it was told to me. If you were drowning at two feet of water and I was drowning at five feet, would it matter? Yes, I understand pain can be felt on a whole spectrum of different levels but who is to say that one person experiencing pain is undergoing any more pain than the other and their painful experience. If we are drowning, then we are drowning.

It’s not easy to reach out to a doctor or get professional help when you have all these negative factors playing in or even hindering you from doing so and when you’re stuck in your head? Well, it feels like giving up at that point. It feels like a loss of everything you could ever have hope for.

The only thing some nights that saved me and so many, I am sure? God, God was there for me when I had no one else. I’m not trying to bring religion into this picture, I’m just saying how sad it kind of makes me that there are too many of these painful life story’s ending with God having to be the only one there for support. God, higher power, or whatever your strong beliefs are in, would it be a pretty picture of the world, when we look and see that these outlets are the very last thing we turn to? That doesn’t want to sit with me well.

I am aware of lessons coming from life’s hardships, aware of what our perceptions and strong beliefs can do to another when our emotions are thrown into the mix but for some people, that hard push from reality and humanity becomes too hard to cope with. This ends countless positive lives that have been through hell to be all for nothing and that is not going to ever be okay with me.

So, what am I doing? I am being what I know to be, me. I am speaking without fear. I am speaking on what I know of and have been through. I am trying to give hope to the people full of positivity and no way or knowledge of what their lives truly mean.

You are a story waiting to be heard, you are the answer to someone else's pain, you are not what you have endured. Your story means so much to me and so many others. I hope this is heard and helps someone else who can relate to my story. I hope my light gets to you. The truth is, we honestly are never alone, and your story? Well, it could be the very voice that someone else needs to prove that very statement to be fact.

Never give up, there is always a reason and a positive story behind everything in life we survive. Never burn your pages, you never know what your words can mean to many others.