It’s tough.

I’m sure you’ve been there; And if not then count your blessings. It is so common and yet here we are. Still afraid to even talk about it. We have such an understanding of it apparently, so why are we so far away from it being normal? If you don’t believe that then look at what needs to be changed. We call it “mental” health? Why when we are not mental we are normal beings? Are we meant to adapt to all of the wrongdoings in life? I’m sure if we were we wouldn’t go through it. It is brought on by severe distress or disbelief in an event in life, or by small events, both leading to the great destination that is depression. Now my own depression occurred through years of mental abuse from bullies effecting my confidence as they would comment on my appearance. I would bounce back and try not to let it get me down but when I look back I realise the great deal of stress it brought me. Fast forward 12 years to where I lost my best friend and my biggest protector, my dad. The one who I would know would always protect me from the big bad world, from the bullying and from the stress. Am I meant to just cope with the realisation of going off into the big bad world without him before I was officially an adult. Was I supposed to deal with this accordingly and not let it effect my thoughts? In all of this I have been abused, cheated on, lied to and walked all over by people I loved with all my heart. I am an animal lover, I used to go round moving snails off the pavement to the other side just to make sure they didn’t get trampled on in the dark. I believe everyone should be respected and should feel loved no matter what their story is because you don’t know what’s going on in their mind. I only know what’s going on in mine and can only hope no one is ever feeling the same way and I wouldn’t want to trigger an alarm in their head that could stress them out. So that’s it, be kind to everyone . It is that simple.

Year 2020, what a year it’s been. Everyone has never felt so alone. Business loss, money loss and even love lost. After all love triumphs and if even love fails how are we meant to keep the faith and keep up with healthy thoughts. Once again are we meant to just take on all of these issues as if they are minor? Even still we don’t talk to people about our struggles. We say “I’m here for you” and “talk to me I’m here” but when do we actually take advantage of that? and why don’t we? Because we’re scared of being judged? Because we’re scared they will get sick of us? Because we just simply don’t want anyone to know about this “mental health”? It’s year 2020 but we still have a long way to go. This year you may have felt lonely, afraid, stressed or you may have not felt anything. This is the dark depression setting in and that my friends is NORMAL. You have had a lot to deal with. You can look at papers on meditation, you can take a walk, and read scientific articles on ways to relieve stress but at the end of the day if you’re experiencing it, experience it. After all you can’t learn from running away from things and pretending they aren’t there. There will be days you don’t want to carry on but each day you do carry on is a defeat to the day before. You are stronger than you know. If you don’t believe me just take a look back at what you’ve experienced, you’re still here today, what an achievement. Be you and don’t ge afraid, because I can guarantee the rest of us are experiencing what you have/ have experienced what you have. You won’t be the first and you certainly won’t be the last.