I Am A Tool — Don’t Use Me As A Weapon!

I have a lot of wisdom, knowledge, and understanding of life because, as a child, I couldn’t understand the hatred, cruelty, and pain that humanity forced upon me. I couldn’t understand why humans inflict pain on each other. So, according to the bible, Solomon was forced to ask God for wisdom, knowledge, and understanding when he was crowned king at twenty years old.

He probably thought like I did about how cruel our world is, especially to children. I can imagine his pain, being forced to rule a country at such a young age. He was terrified but sensible. They say wisdom doesn’t come with youth.

Being born and raised in a Religious country, attending religious schools from the age of three, and reading my Bible daily, I found value in Solomon’s life.

After my first lesson about him in Sunday School, his life, actions, choices, and decisions became my manual. As I learned more about him, I imitated what he did, asking my creator for wisdom, knowledge, and understanding.

As I grew, I took the time to know myself because I believe that “If you know yourself, then no one can tell you who you are.” — Annelise Lords.

No one should know you more than you know yourself!

I took the time to get to know myself. Being super shy and introverted made it easy. Then, I studied my world and the humans in it. I studied the people around me and how they live.

Humans and their lives, living, actions, choices, decisions, and intentions became my manual.

I learned from everything and everyone. Plants and animals, too.

Life, poverty, hunger, and pain taught me many things, including common sense. Being kind, I am often taken for granted, so I take the time to learn about life.

Life became my teacher.

Life taught me to give the good I want.

Then, Life went into detail using the lives and experiences of many humans I know and showed me the value of kindness, honesty, empathy, thoughtfulness, understanding, love, etc.- all the good things I need to live a good life.

Then, it showed me the rewards and consequences of everything they do and demanded, “If you do what they do, wrong or right, do you think your rewards or consequences would be different?”

Good and evil, life will pay me back. It pays us back in weird ways through our actions, choices, and decisions. I learned that dishonesty repays us back with dishonesty. Cruelty repays us back with cruelty, like kindness returns the kindness I give. So will love, patience, forgiveness, consideration, etc.

Good pay us back with good. Bad pays back bad. Balance must have a say whether humans like it or not. Like life, balance cannot be bought or bribed.

My decisions are my life, and my life is my decision! — Annelise Lords

Having that knowledge, I can share it with others now.

Thus, I became a tool for wise, sensible, good-hearted humans. Depending on how they treat me, I can become a weapon for dishonest, greedy, hateful, etc., humans.

Many humans aren’t aware that you are a tool that can heal, inspire, motivate, encourage, and help.

But you can or will become a weapon when they treat you unjustly.

Taking my kindness for weakness is using me as a weapon. Misunderstanding my honesty for stupidity and using me is another way. And there are many.

What are you? A Tool?

Or a Weapon?

If your heart could speak, what would it say?

I am a tool until humans give me a reason to become a weapon!

Thank you for reading this piece. I hope you enjoyed it.