Giving Life the Bitch Stare

One of the things I can’t stand is how life has a way of slapping you in the face and then leaving you with the red mark and agonizing pain. Lately, life has been slapping me in the face, and I am not sure why. In my opinion, life slaps me in the face when I set my mind on something and it doesn’t work out or when I swear to start my day off positive and BAM! Something annoying and unnecessary happens. When these different things happen, I want to give life the bitch stare; I want to look at my life and say, "Come on now, give me a break because you’re doing the most and I am at my breaking point." I often have these moments because I realize that I am not in a position in my life that I want to be in, and for some reason, life keeps on going no matter what. I want to give life the bitch stare when it takes a toll on people that are close to me, mainly when their life moments affect my life moments. For example, my husband is going through a lot right now, and if anyone hears his story, you would honestly think that life is purposely screwing him over. My husband and I are a team, so we are going to get through these things together, but damn can we get a break for just a moment? Today I found myself just sitting inside the house all day because it was just way too hot to go outside. A part of me wanted to take the risk and go out with the kids anyway, but instead of doing that I stayed in the house and thought to myself, "Why is my life so dull right now?" This moment made me want to give life the bitch stare because I wanted to be closer to my family, which ended up leading me to the state of Georgia at the beginning of summer; so, of course, it was going to be crazy hot outside. Life has been kicking my ass so bad lately because I don’t have any control of it and I am not sure when I finally will. I want to scream at my life and tell it, "Please be patient." Finally, I want to scrunch up my face, roll my eyes, and roll my neck as I give my life the final bitch stare, hoping that it takes the hint and straightens itself out.

At the end of every bitch stare, I want to take a deep breath and realize that life is going to get better, and it is going to get easier despite what I'm going through. Even though life has funny, sad, cruel, and unbearable ways of treating you, it can't defeat me. I don’t want it to get to the point where it is affecting my relationships with my family or even how I am as a parent. I must realize that I have so much of it to live. Life is going to have its way with me whether I like it or not, but what I do with it is the ultimate reward. If you’ve felt like giving up on life, you must pick your head up and keep moving forward. There are so many different things that could’ve been worse. Honestly, when you decide to give life the bitch stare, you are standing up for yourself and the people close to you. You are saying, "Forget being sad, mad, or afraid, and started looking forward to changing one day at a time." Giving life the bitch stare means that you are in control of your happiness and courage to move forward whether life gives you lemonade or lemons.