Finding Myself.

A path to find yourself that you thought never existed.

DISCLAIMER

THE CHARACTERS, PLACES, SITUATIONS EVERYTHING IN THIS STORY IS NON-FICTIONAL

Hello readers, this is neither a story nor a poem. It is a reality check for me and those who need to hear it.

The title itself suggests that this is about finding the lost me. If you are reading this. Either you're curious or you've lost yourself.

( Just Like Me )

Am I right? But the reality is, you won't be curious if you're not lost.

When you opened this, you were likely seeking guidance. Perhaps you wish to expect to gain knowledge and receive motivational and useful tips. Am I correct?

I have a question for you.

Why are you lost?

Where are you lost?

How do you lose yourself?

For whom do you lose yourself?

Where are you searching for yourself? What are you doing to find yourself?

Are you searching for yourself in sad music, Instagram reels, smoking, drinking alcohol, sitting alone in a room thinking that no one loves you, no one cares about you? Honey, you don’t care about yourself. How do you expect others to care about you?

If that’s the case. My apologies. Stop reading this and continue doing that. I seriously don’t care. You're just feeding a demon. You're just abusing yourself. You're abusing yourself because you don't like yourself. Just go and see some sad things. I don’t care at all.

If you're continuing this, stop doing those things after reading.

Look at yourself. What are you doing? Look at yourself in the mirror. How are you feeling when you see your reflection? Do you see yourself as the most precious thing in the world? No right? Then how are you expecting others to see you or treat you as a precious person? Don’t say "People should love me the way I am". Why should they do that? What are you for them? Do you see everyone like that? Be honest with yourself. Do you feel the same with others? No, you expect something from others, right? Honey, the problem is not in the people around you. It's in you.

Ask yourself. Why are you sad? What are you depressed for? What are you crying for? Ask yourself. Why do I feel like this?

You may get answers, but they might be your beliefs and excuses. You're in a victim mindset. Because being in a victim mindset makes you feel safe and you can blame others. But at the end of life, there is no one to blame, it's just you.

Ah! Are you heartbroken? Are you going through a break-up? Did someone cheat on you? Did your friend ditch you? Your family doesn’t care about you? Sorry but, why are you allowing people to look down on you or treat you like that? Why? That’s your behavior that made them treat you like that. Realize, you're life is shit because of you. No one can do anything for you. No one has to do anything for you. You own your life, not others. It's not your heart broken, it's your ego that is broken. You told your mind that this would happen and things didn't happen that way. So now, your ego is broken when you believe in your expectations.

Okay. So, it is what it is. What are you going to do? You'll skip meals. Okay, and ? You'll cry? Okay and ? You'll try to kill yourself. Okay and, no one is affected by that. You're spoiling your life. You have complete control of your life. You have control over who can be your friends, you have control over who you date, and you have control over what you watch, listen, and read. It's just you honey. Stop blaming others. Take responsibility for your behavior. Accept yourself and start making changes in yourself.

Begin by embracing self-love and focusing on healing. Start journaling and move your body for at least 30 minutes daily. Prioritize yourself first. Add skincare into your routine and engage with physical appearance, including how you dress. Have meaningful conversations, read books, and explore life through trips, dinners, and social meetings. Remember, no one is holding you back from these choices — except yourself.

Most importantly, don’t try to do all the things at a time. Starting everything once. Start one after the other. You do all the things at a time. Your mind, your brain, and your body will be exhausted. You will do it for a week and you end up stopping it. Make mini goals like mini. Make a goal for 30 days I will drink 2 liters of water every day. And do it. Be consistent. And the next month for another one. So in the time. You will start trusting yourself without knowing. Don't break self-promises. Don't postpone things. Be consistent and it's a key to success. Trust me.

I know you feel lonely in the beginning. But, trust me. Have some patience. Everything works like magic.

When you like to have someone. Trust in god or the universe. They will listen to you. Talk to them. Ask them. Be patient. If things don't work in the way you want, it works in a much better way. Trust god. Trust universe. Trust yourself.

By any chance, if you feel that god won't listen to me. Just ask god to send some gifts. Don’t be specific. Just ask god to send you a gift and ask him to let you know it. Trust me. It works like magic.

It's all you. No one has control over you. Only you can change yourself. Believe me. You deserve such high things in life. In case nobody told you yet. Just remember. You deserve a lot. You deserve everything. Don’t look down on yourself. You have a high potential hidden in you. Don’t stop that. Love yourself enough that you can bounce back from anything real quick, in a snap of a moment. And I suggest you start affirmations, it works. Start praying to god every day. That’s all for this upload.

For people who get offended by this. I hope you heal soon. Please, visit a therapist.

There is a saying " People who are healed or know their worth can't be manipulated or controlled by others ". They control themselves.

Thank you for reading this with patience. I hope you all heal from the things, you don’t speak about.

I hope this helps someone.

- Kavya Kambalapally